The One That Got Away

CHAPTER 20

Anne and Johanna decided to leave Harry by his own,to think,to make up his mind and to rest.He started washing the dishes and cleaning the table from the dinner when the bell ring rang.He closed the water and wiped his hands.He immediately thought that maybe Louis was back.He took a deep breath and went straight to the door.When he opened it he saw him.

"Louis!",he said and fell into his arms.

"Hi Haz.",he replied and hugged him too.

"Come in,you will catch a cold."

Louis nodded and came inside.He followed Harry to the living room where they both sat next to each other near the fireplace.

"Are you okay?Are you warm enough?Do you want me to bring you anything?"

"No,Harry,i'm fine.",he said distantly."I will not stay for long anyways."

"What?Why?Where will you go?"

"Harry.Don't rush into things.I'll explain eveything."

"Okay.Sorry."

"So,i will no longer live here,with you."

"But-"

"Let me finish.I can not live under these circumstances anymore.I want to be free.I want you to be free.It was not meant to be together.Let's accept this and move on.We will be happy.Both of us."

"What?No!There is no way you're saying that.Don't listen to Simon or Modest.Listen to your heart Lou."

"Well,Harry,the thing is that i'm listening to my heart and not these people.",he said and nodded his head.

"You can't say that.You're not the Louis i was with.He was different.",Harry said and started crying hard.

"People change Harry.I changed.I understood a few things and here i am."

"Please Lou.Stop saying that."

"This is he truth Harry.Accept it.And stop calling me Lou.I'm not a kid anymore.It's over.I'm taking my stuff."

Louis stood up quickly and went upstairs followed by Harry who was trying to convince him not to leave.He opened the wardrobe and took some of his clothes and put them in a suitcase.

"Lou,think about it again.Please.",he said as he was crying.

"Stop calling me like that.",Louis responded with even looking at him.

"Louis,who made you like that?Simon?Carla?Eleanor?"

Louis started to laugh.

"None of them.In fact,you were the one that made me change and realise how i am truly.I have to thank you for that.So thank you.",he said and took the suitcase and left.

"No Louis.",Harry stopped him as he fell on his knees."I beg you.Don't leave me.I will not survive without your love.DOn't leave me Lou.",Harry scried more and more."Don't leave me."

"Oh,for fuck's sake Harry,get up.",he said and help him get up."Look at you.You are a begger in your own home.You beg everyone to stay in your life because you know how incapable you are to take your own life at your own hands.I'm so sick of this.You expect everyone to love you or to help you.This is not how it works.You have to help yourself.You are the only one who can do it."

Harry fell into his arms again and hugged him tight.Louis was trying topush him away but he failed.Louis just wanted to leave.Harry left him after a few seconded and stepped back.

"So...this is it?",he asked as he wiped the tears.

"Yeah,i believe so.",Louis said coldly.

"But i love you.I will still love you.For both of us."

"I guess it's right person,wrong time.It's not the right time Harry,for us."

"Will it ever be?"

"Maybe not for us.",Louis said and left the room.

Harry fell down on the floor and started crying again.The whole world had collapsed for him.He didn't want anything else beside him.

After hours of crying,he finally got up,went downstairs and took some painkillers,even though the doctor said not to.He had a terrible headache.He took a sip from his glass of water and lied on the floor where he fell asleep.