Waste It On Me ( BTS Namjoon x Reader)

Part 6 - Chapter 10

You push the door to Namjoon’s old room, the hallway is in darkness and your eyes adjust to the strip of moonlight in the bedroom.
Namjoon sits up in bed, the pale blue hue of the room shadowing over the muscles of his chiseled chest.
“what are you doing here?” his voice sounds wide awake, his hair still perfect.
Crossing the room, you pull off his hoodie, dropping your pajamas to the floor and climb under the duvet. “I missed you” you hum, pulling his face to yours.
“I’ve only been gone an hour” he starts to kiss you hungrily, melting his lips to yours.
“I don’t care” you hum, pressing your body closer to his warmth, “I want to spend all of my life with you… I love you”
“I love you too” he grins, his dimples looking so deep in the shadowed light.
Namjoon shifts, moving his body over you, pressing your shoulders back into the pillows, your hands snake over his shoulder blades, drawing his warm skin against yours. As your legs part, Joon shifts over, nestling his body between your thighs, he presses forward and you realise he’s naked.
“you don’t often sleep with no clothes on” your statement is more of a question.
“maybe I knew you’d come to find me” he hums, running his nose along your neck, breathing deeply into the shell of your ear.
“am I predictable?” you chuckle, moving underneath him, needing to feel him between your legs.
“no way” he laughs, his eyes sparkling in the moonlight, “even now… I don’t know if you’re going to let me have sex with you…” his body shifts forward and his erection presses against the top of your thigh.
“we’d agreed not to…” you bite your lip, hoping he can see that you’re teasing. The need for him to move his body a few inches making you squirm.
“technically its our wedding day now…” he groans, his mouth moving over your bare shoulder, tasting your skin with his perfect lips, your body tingling in response.
Your fingers dig into the muscles of his back, “then do whatever you want to me” you moan, meaning every word.
“you really are going to kill me one day” he growls as he thrusts forward, filling you so perfectly.
Your mouth finds his ear, your breath echoing, your tongue flicks out, touching the small silver hoop – Namjoon shudders out a groan as he stills, pushed so deep inside you.
Raising your hips, you start to move against him, grinding into him as your mouth travels over his strong neck, his collar bone, his Adams apple, you kiss over his chin, finally reaching his bottom lip.
Namjoon moves so perfectly as you wrap your legs around him, feeling his muscular ass under your calves. He moans into your mouth, making you dig your fingers deeper into his back.
“can we do this forever?” he whispers into your ear, it comes out in a gasping breathy moan that makes your stomach knot with fire.
“yes” you manage to choke out as every stoke gets you closer.
He moves his hands, scooping under your back, dragging you closer to his chest as he leans back, rolling over smoothly until you’re straddled on top of him.
The blue moonlight bathes him in a breathtaking light as you look down, hands on his solid chest, feeling his heart racing as you start to move.
“I cant believe you’re mine…” he gasps, knowing you’re getting close, he sits up on his elbows, looking up at you with so much wonder, your vision starts to blur as fire creeps over your skin, the sensation getting too much.
All of the emotion of the evening seems to melt away as you cum, his fingers digging into your hips as he feels you clench around him.
“oh my god” he whispers in a moan as his face loosens, his perfect mouth dropping open in a small familiar O as you feel him pulse.
“forever, and ever” you confirm, leaning in to suck his bottom lip against yours.
Underneath you, Joon flops back into the pillows, his amazing chest heaving - he looks so perfect, it makes your heart squeeze.
“Is it possible to die from loving someone too much?” he looks up, his eyes are serious again.
“that might be what I die from” you lean to press your chest to his, both of your hearts beating, you nestle your face into his neck – your favourite place to be.

*****

June 16th 2021

“you look so beautiful” Namjoon’s grin nearly knocks you off your feet, your knees already feeling shaky in your heels.
You reach forward and entwine your fingers with his, the walk down the aisle towards him has seemed too long, your mind whirs – thinking you rushed too quickly, eager to get to him and hold his hand.
Looking around, you smile to the members, Jimin and Tae holding hands, eyes glistening, Yoongi and David on the front row with Jungkook. Sujin and Jennie have taken their seats with Hobi and Jin, both look so beautiful in their bridesmaids dresses. You see your family, your friends, Joon’s family who will soon be yours too…
The venue looks stunning, Jennie had made some amazing suggestions to turn the outdoor park area into a secluded wonderland, the decorations are gorgeous.
You turn to Joon again, looking into his brown eyes, seeing so much love reflected back at you.

The morning had been perfect - waking up tucked under Joon’s shoulder and hesitantly peeling away from his warmth to head back to your apartment. The stylists were amazing and everything ran to Jennie’s clockwork schedule – time didn’t seem to move fast enough – there were no nerves, just excitement to get to the venue and see Namjoon – to marry him.
“you look so handsome” you mirror back to him, holding his gaze and squeezing his fingers.
He exhales, clenching his jaw, your heart leaps knowing that he is trying to hold back his emotion.

***

“I’ll go first” you smile, as the Master of Ceremonies says it is time for your own vows.
“OK” Joon nods, not taking his eyes off you for a second.
Sujin creeps from her seat, pressing a piece of paper into your hand.
“its pretty short, but Namjoon is better with words anyway” you smile to the congregation, unfolding the sheet of paper – you expected your hands to shake, but you look at Joon and feel surprised by how normal this feels.

“My Love” you try not to look down at the paper, “I feel so lucky” you exhale, “lucky to have worked at the same company as Sujin who invited me to a party a long time ago” a smile flickers across Joon’s face, “lucky to have been abandoned at that party…” you turn to Sujin who grins, her fingers laced in Hoseok’s on her lap, “to have turned around and bumped into the love of my life…” Namjoon’s jaw tightens again.
“I thought back then that I was lucky to have known you for one night… but I’m so lucky that a year later you still thought of me”
“of course I did” Namjoon interrupts with a smile.
“I knew, through those years of friendship, that I was lucky… I knew how special and amazing you are to the whole world, and I was so lucky to have you as my Best Friend” you swallow, your throat starting to feel tight with happy tears.
“and I’ve never experienced so much luck in my life when I heard your voice in the airport, and knew, without any doubt at all, that you’re the One”
Joon squeezes your hands, confirming he feels the same.
“I am far too lucky to have you, to live with you, to be part of this crazy and wonderful and talented family you have made…” glancing down at the paper, there is nothing else to say, “I just want to say… thank you, and I love you so much”

He leans down, his soft kiss easing the lump in your throat before any tears fall.
“I love you so much too” he breathes, “my turn?” he turns to the officiant who nods.

“I wrote so many speeches and vows for this” he starts, squeezing your fingers, “and I have them all saved, so I’ll show you one day… but I couldn’t pick something final to say”
You look into his eyes, he gives a small smirk seeing your confused look.
“I thought I’d just get up here and talk… but that seems stupid now” he looks around at your family and friends, Tae giving a cute boxy grin, encouraging him to keep going, Jin gives him a little thumbs up and Jennie swats his hand down.
“its so crazy to me, hearing you say how lucky you are – because you totally know that I’m the lucky one” he looks into your eyes again and you blink back your tears, “I’ll confess something…” he looks over his shoulder at Sujin and JHope, “I looked on Sujin’s Facebook the night before the party, and saw a picture of you…”
“what?” your eyes widen in shock.
“There was picture taken in a bar in Seoul of the two of you, and I absolutely fell for you, so… I…  prompted… Hobi to ask Sujin to invite you”
“oh my god” you breathe, looking down at your fingers still entwined with his, “you never told me”
“when we started talking again, I thought to myself that I would tell you on our wedding day”

Your mind reels, trying to piece the timeline together – imagining Namjoon already thinking about marrying you while you were talking over Skype.
“so maybe that bit wasn’t luck, I saw you across the party and was coming over to introduce myself when you turned around and bumped into me” he smiles until he dimples show.
“and it wasn’t luck that made me text you a year later, it was me being a total idiot for waiting a year” he exhales, “I’ve been crazy about you from the very beginning – you’re perfect… you’re so beautiful, you’re surprising, and thoughtful and so much fun” he smiles as you look into his eyes, a blush creeping up your neck, “you’re so amazing to our crazy family” he turns to look at the members in turn who all nod in agreement - their faces make a tear finally fall.

“I’m lucky that you’re mine…” he clenches his jaw again, “you said yesterday that we could die from loving each other too much”
You nod, taking a small step closer to him, feeling the warmth of his body.
“I want to live my whole life with you before that happens” the way he looks at you makes your heart pound, “it might not be the life you thought… but, please…” he inhales, “waste it on me?”
Lines of tears stream down your cheeks, “I will” you smile as he slides a ring onto your finger.

**The End**