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Voices. Shadows. Cries. Blurred faces.
And Peoples that I didn't knew, but they're familiar to me.
And everytime I forced my self to remember it, my heads ache and even my heart.
My instinct saying stop but my heart don't want to.
I wanted to know them, it feels like they really important to me even I didn't know them.
I felt that I'm happy in those memories of mine.
Those happiness that I didn't experience in my life now.
I'm desperate, yes.
Because those happiness I craving for.
Happiness. Cares. And Love.
And in my memories, I loved someone.
And the feeling is mutual.
But it's forbidden..
Because I can tell that the love they had is wrong.
They fight and prove their love to everybody, but it ended in tragic.
My heart is contracting in pain.
A pain that's more unbearable.
I'm hurting for the both of them.
They love each other in a wrong time.
Why fate is playing with them?
Maybe fate just wanted them to realized something.
So I did my best to remember it all.
I did my best to recognized those blurred faces, and to that man that I loved in the past.
And that's my bigggest mistake I did.
And I wish that I didn't let my curiosity take me.
Curiosity kills the cat and its true.
I felt that every inch of me are killing. Double attack.
In my memories, the past me is inloved with my own brother.
And now, the present me is not just inloved with my brother.
The man in my dream is not just my brother, its my father now.
And yes, I'm fucking inlove with my father. Not as a fatherly love.
I love my father, in a romantic way.
I also love a wrong person in a wrong time.
But the thing is, I didn't do the same mistake I did in my past life.
Everybody said that if you love someone then fight for it.
But I did not, why?
Because not all the time you need to fight on what you want.
You need sometimes to let it go.
To get the peace in your heart.
This feelings of mine, I will buried this in the deepest part of my heart.
I will buried it until my last breath.
I did not let my memories of the past affect my life now in present.
Its just a memories that I will also buried in my last breath.
I loved my brother in past.
I loved my father in present.
I loved the same person in a wrong time.
But now, I will love the person who has really deserve my love.
I will love... Myself.
Its time to love myself. And to heal.
