𒊹︎︎︎(:::errors ahead:::)
𒊹︎︎︎/p͟l͟a͟g͟r͟i͟a͟s͟m͟ i͟s͟ a͟ c͟r͟i͟m͟e͟/
I am lonely,
and darkness is my companion.
I was in verge of killing myself,
not until you came and
save me from my misery.
You saved me from the darkness,
and you lead me to the lightness.
I was so damn happy,
because finally there was someone who will be take care of me.
I was scared,
not because I feel your cares.
I'm scared,
because I'm afraid that your care will vanished.
But you comforted me,
and said " don't be afraid because I will there by your side till enternity".
I'm relieved,
because of what you said.
I'm relieved,
because I know that I don't have to worried anyway.
Days, weeks and years passed,
and I don't have anything to wish.
I am happy,
and I'm contented on what I have.
And like everybody does,
everything has expiration.
The happiness I was enjoying,
It was cut off literally.
The door of darkness has opened,
and tempted me to go there.
I was scared, again.
But not because the darkness was there,
but because I knew you will not save me, again.
I wanted to scream,
"please save me!".
But I dare not to,
because I know this time,
no one will listen.
I am disappointed,
not to you,
but to me.
I was disappointed,
I know this will be happen.
But I let myself,
enjoyed the moment.
And again,
darkness hug me.
But this time,
I did not hope someone will save me,
like what happened in the past.
I did not hope,
someone will give me a light.
I did not hope,
because I know there will be no ears will listen to me.
I did not hope,
someone will save me.
I did not.
I am always used to be this ,
and I will forever will be caged in here.
In darkness,
with the monsters as my family, again.
I was not born to feel happy and free.
I was born to experienced hell and the cruelty of the humanity.
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