Please Tommy...

Dear Newt...

I read his letter every morning when I wake up, every day before I eat frypans improving quality food and every night before I Drift of and dream of him... newt

Dear Thomas
This is the first letter I can remember writing. Obviously I don't know if I've written any letters before the Maze. But even if it's not my first, it's likely to be my last. I want you to know that I'm not afraid. About dying anyways or forgetting. It's losing myself to this virus, that's what scares me. So every night I've been saying their names out loud. Alby, Winston, Chuck. And I just repeat them over and over like a prayer. And it all comes flooding back. Just the little things. Like when the sun used to hit the glade at the perfect moment, right before it'd slip beneath the walls. And I remember the taste of Frypans stew. I'd never thought I'd miss that stuff so much. I remember you. I remember you first coming up in the box, just a scared little greenie, who couldn't even remember his own name. But from the moment you ran into the maze, I knew that I would follow you anywhere. And I have. We all have. If I could do it all over again I would, and I wouldn't change a thing. My hope for you is when your looking back, years from now, is that you'll stay the same. The future is in your hands now Tommy, and I know you'll find a way to do what's right, you always have. Take care of everyone for me. And take care of yourself. You deserve to be happy, Thank you for being my friend. Goodbye, Mate

Newt
(that makes me cry every time I read it 😚✌️)

I've memorised that letter to the point where it plays back in head stopping me from concentrating from my jobs at the safe haven, it's even made me start saying their names... Newt, Alby, Winston, Chuck. I wear newts necklace and jacket everywhere because it's the only thing that I had that brought me comfort. The safe haven was a nice place, only immunes resided in it of course so no virus, no Cranks but something about it just didn't make me feel at home like the glade did but I guess it's because no one that kept me company before (other than minho) were here also that I wasn't trapped I didn't have to escape through an elaborate maze with the vilest of creatures possibly ever known.
"Thomas!" Minho was calling me pronounce because I did my job wrong or something, he is starting to remind me of Gally how he would always follow the rules no matter the situation.

I left my hammock and pulled back the curtain like door that was encasing me in my tent, I was trying to prepare myself for the telling off that Minho would be giving me and brainstorming ideas of what I had done wrong but nothing came to mind so I just went to him prepared for whatever he would say to me.
"Ah you here."
"You needed me."
"Yes Thomas it is time to put their names on the stone" this wasn't what I was expecting, it also wasn't something I wanted to do because it involved me remembering what had happened to newt.
~FLASHBACK~
Newts arm was resting on my shoulder as I was practically dragging him to Brenda who had the cure for the flare virus, I had gotten him to a train station until he pulled himself out of my Grasp and took a gun out of my holster. I had to knock it out of his hand... I wasn't going to let him die. Then he starting attacking me until he pulled himself away
"Please Tommy" he said in a weak voice.
"NO COME ON I CAN SAVE YOU" newt pulled a knife out of my pocket and it seemed like he was going to stab me until... he had killed himself he pulled off his necklace and once again said "please Tommy" they where his last words.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Carving his name into that rock was a struggle because I could barley see what I was doing due to all the tears coming from my eyes. Once I had finished his name I was told to do Chucks name but I couldn't bare to write another name that meant so much to me so I headed back to my tent and rested for the rest of the day but instead of resting I decided to write a letter to Newt in case somehow I ever did see him again maybe in the afterlife if there is one or maybe, just maybe he wasn't dead,

Dear Newt,
You are the first friend I can remember having, the first person I can remember that didn't seem like they hated me once I came up in that box and as you said if we could do it all again I wouldn't change a thing and if somehow I was given a chance to bring one of the people that had died back it would be you, it would always be you, even if I had to sacrifice my own life to get you back onto this now peaceful world I would as from what you have told me you have never lived a peaceful life so I would die knowing that you would live a peaceful life just without me. Goodbye my friend... my love.

Thomas

"Touching"
"MINHO GET OUT"
"Alright alright just turn that god damn light off its to late to have that on."
"Ok now goodnight" I said their names once again " Newt, Alby, Winston, Chuck I will see you soon, by that I meant I was going to end it all... I have nothing else to live for everyone I loved and cared for are all dead so I would risk it all for a chance to see them all again."
"R-really you would do that?" Minho asked with a petrified look on his face.
"Fuck did I say that out loud."
"I- uh yeah"
"Just accept it I've already got all planed out and there is no reason that I shouldn't"
"I- I know there are reasons."
"There aren't now just bloody go away Minho" At that exact moment Minho ran back to his tent faster that he could ever seem to run in the maze. Goodnight Newt, my friend, my love.

* Wow 1000 words that's a lot bigger than my usual chapters but to anyone who does read this hope you  enjoy it*