Whispers of Regret (Completed)

I Love you

"I love you. I love you. I love you, Gulf." Mew spoke in a hushed whisper.

"Oh really? Maybe tomorrow you will decide this was a mistake too. Don't say anything to me unless you mean it. I don't want your half hearted words. If you can't be with me forever then don't bother. If you are interested in fling or something casual, please don't come to me for that. I don't do things like that."

"Gulf, I meant what I said yesterday and I was going to ask you to be my bf today but I just couldn't. "

"Why? "

"It is nothing to do with you Gulf. It was all my fault an-"

"Mew, you know most important thing in any relationship is communication and trust. Love alone isn't enough. We need to communicate so that we can understand each other better. I can't read your mind, Mew. I can't know what is wrong with you all the time.

There are those couple who know whatever their partner is thinking or can read their mood, I don't know about them maybe it's true for them but not everyone is like that. If you don't like something or something is bothering you, you need to tell me. I can't guess everything."

"I know that, Gulf. When we were in restaurant, people talked about how it must be hard for you to be with someone like me. How terrible it must be to be with someone ugly. You must be disgusted by my face. You are handsome Gulf, you deserve someone worthy of you. "

"Okay, so you think I am a shallow and narrow minded person who only cares about people looks and is insensitive jerk, right? "

"Of course not. Why would you say that? "

"Then why did you listen to their words and decided about our relationship? Mew, you only have scars on your face."

"Only scars?? How can you say that? "

"Yes, only scars. There are people who are rotten to core. They are ugly in real sense. You just had an accident. That scar has nothing to do with you. It's just there and people who love you don't give a damn about them. It's not that because I love you I don't see those scars, I see them still I love you because they are a part of you like everything else. You survived something terrible and they are there to tell you that."

"Gulf, people will always point at us. They must call you gold digger and I would hate that. I don't want anyone to talk bad about you because of me."

"Mew, people will always talk. That's something they are good at. No matter how good or kind you are people will still find something bad to say about you. That's how society is. They will look at you and make perception about your entire life like they know you and judge you on that.

But you can't let them affect you. It's your life, Mew. You are the one who has lived it. They didn't live your life, they didn't suffer like you did so they don't get to tell you how to live it. They can call me whatever they wish, they can talk behind our back, as long as I have you I can handle it."

"I'm sorry, Gulf. I undermined our feelings. I apologize for that. I'm just insecure right now. Lhong words still hurt like hell. I know you aren't like him. You are million times better but still I get insecure when I think there will be so many guys who would want to pursue you, they will be better than me and it scares me to think that I may lose you."

"Mew, do you people who stay in love don't have any better options? Don't you think better people have pursued them? No matter who you are with you will always come across someone better. Someone richer or more beautiful or more intelligent but still they choose to stay with the one they love. Why? Because the one they are with is a better person and in life that is all that should matter."

"Why are you so smart? I really don't know what to say to you anymore. I can't apologize enough. It seems like lately all I do is apologize to you. Makes me feel pathetic. So, Gulf you don't have to do anything. I'll be the one to pursue you. You just have to sit back and enjoy everything.

I won't ever say things to you that I don't mean. I don't want you to commit right away. I know you must be confused as well so let me love you and pamper you. "

Gulf blushed at Mew's words. "I haven't forgiven you yet. "

Mew whispered in Gulf's ear, "It's okay. You can punish me if you want." Then he bit Gulf's earlobe making him squeak.