I knew him before he was a monster

Part 1

im starting to regret coming here rick let me join his group 2 months ago , it's been great up to this point , we are on our knees waiting to meet their leader of the men that we had killed, we killed his men while they were sleeping, but we thought that was the last of them, I should have left when I had the chance 

"pissing our pants yet"

"You're Rick, right? I'm Negan. And I do not appreciate you killing my men. Also, when I sent my people to kill your people for killing my people, you killed more of my people. Not cool. Not cool. You have no idea how not cool that shit is. But I think you're gonna be up to speed shortly. Yeah. You are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes. Yes, you are"

I look up not believing what I am seeing no it can't be, it cant be coach Negan, oh crap, I just can't imagine him killing anybody he used to be so nice to me, he better not see me

"You see, Rick, whatever you do, no matter what, you don't mess with the new world order. And the new world order is this, and it's really very simple. So, even if you're stupid, which you very may well be, you can understand it. You ready? Here goes. Pay attention. Give me your shit... or I will kill you. Today was career day. We invested a lot so you would know who I am and what I can do. You work for me now. You have shit, you give it to me. That's your job. Now, I know that is a mighty big, nasty pill to swallow, but swallow it you most certainly will!

You ruled the roost. You built something. You thought you were safe. I get it. But the word is out. You are not safe. Not even close. In fact, you are pegged, more pegged if you don't do what I want. And what I want is half your shit"

time skip to after Negan has killed glen and Abraham

I keep my head down not wanting him to notice me because honesty he is scaring me I thought I knew him and now he is threatening my friends , I wasn't paying attention so I did not notice how close Negan was right now

Negan grabs hold of my chin forcing me to look into his eyes, my heart is being really fast just hoping that maybe he just won't recognize me but im not that lucky

" well shit darling, dam Jessica, if I knew you were hear I wouldn't have made you get on your knees, I start panicking while trying not to look at Negan "calm down darling I don't bite , well unless you ask me to of course"

somehow I picked up some courage to slap him in the face, if looks could kill I would be dead, I have never seen him so mad his eyes darkened and I tried to back away but he grabbed me roughly by the arm forcing me to stand up

" oh you just made the biggest mistake of your life darling" but before I could even blink Daryl had punched Negan in the face and I tried to not laugh but I just couldn't help myself which earned me a angry look from Negan

" put him in the rv were taking him with us , as well as Jessica " as he grabs my arm pulling me with him and I try to struggle but it is no use he is too strong

what no..... please just let me go I don't want to go with you ...you asshole

" calm the hell down or I will break your arm"

in the rv with Negan 

you son of a bitch I will find away to kill you, you can count on that

" well excuse my god dam French darling but did you just threaten me because I will shut that shit down because no one and I me absolutely fucking no one speaks to me like that I don't care that we have a past or not but you will get in line" Negan says looking even more pissed off

I go to slap Negan but he grabs my arms and pushes me up against the wall with his body pressed against mine and his face dangerously close right now

" I can usually let things slide but you are seriously pissing me off, so sit the fuck down and keep your pretty little mouth shut while I go deal with rick"

I do as im told because the man in front me isn't the one I fell in love with and I do not know what he is capable of anymore, so I sit down and try not to cry I may not have known glen and Abraham long but we were very close I was best friends with glen I just cant believe that their gone