I knew him before he was a monster

Part 7 confessing your feelings

summary: you find out that Negan is in love with you too

"hey darling so since your one of my saviours you don't need points to eat , you do get points for runs tho so you can spend them on whatever , anyway I need to warn you when someone breaks the rules such as sleeping with one of my wives then I iron there face looks like mark forgot the rules " I look up smiling at Negan before following

I head down to stand with the others as I kneel for Negan

" who are you" we all shout Negan

" you may stand , now seems like mark here has forgotten the rules with sleeping with amber, so im gonna have to change that, Dwight the iron" Negan orders as he grabs the iron from Dwight " rules are what keeps us alive it is what makes this all work, you knew the rules and you fucked up so this is on you " he makes eye contact with me before burning marks face with the iron pulling some of the skin as he pulls the iron off his face as mark screams before passing out

" dam looks like he pissed his pants that shit is fucking gross, someone clean this shit up" Negan orders " and doc do your job"

I guess changing him is going to be a lot harder than I thought " hey jess you're not scared of me are you from seeing that , I really hope not, you don't hate me do you" Negan pleads I bring Negan in for a hug " I could never hate you, after everything you've done for me, I still love you and that's never gonna change , just wish you loved me too " as I head off with the other saviour's leaving Negan speechless

Negan pov

How can she not know how much I loved her, I fell in love with her the moment I laid eyes on her but never said anything because of Lucille and the moment I was going to tell her I found out that Lucile had cancer , so I stayed with her , because I loved Lucille with all my heart , I want to tell her but I don't know if I should

I make my way back to my room seeing Jessica looking upset sat on my bed , eyes looking at the floor

" you're an idiot if you don't think I love you because I've loved you since the moment that I met you ,I thought you could tell from the way that I looked at you, I was going to end It with Lucille but then she said she had cancer so I just couldn't so I had to leave you, but I never stopped loving you darling" jess gets up coming face to face to me

" I love you too Negan but we cant be together because I will never be able to measure up to how amazing Lucille was , im not her, im not good enough for you Negan you deserve better im just not worth it "

which pissed Negan off 

"for fuck sake Jessica are you fucking kidding me , I stayed with her because she had cancer and yes I loved her but I loved you more and no you are not Lucille , your you and your awesome, your better , you are the kindest person I have ever met, you are the love of my life I want to be with you" tears threatening to come down

" I love you so much jess you have no idea" as Negan starts to get emotional

jess comes and  moves closer to Negan " I love you too, im glad you feel the same" Jessica says with tears looking very hopeful