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Chapter 49

Those are probably the hardest words I have ever had to say. Beau just sits there and doesn't say anything, just holds me. It feels like I'm in the arms of a robot, his warmth gone, and not saying anything.
"But" he says, his voice cracking. "I can't leave you, not knowing the next time I am going to see you again" he says, resting his chin on the top of my head. A lump in my throat forms, forcing me to cry. I need to say strong.
"I can't leave her alone, she's pregnant, she's my best friend" I say
"But I'm your boyfriend" he says, this time looking straight into my eyes, I can see his eyes becoming glassy as he speaks.
"You can't give me an ultimatum Beau" I say seriously.
"I'm not Danni" he says and kisses me "I just can't and don't want to imagine being in LA without you" he says, this time tears emerging from his eyes. "Please come" he says, kissing me on my forehead, I can feel his tears dripping on to my face, making me cry.
"I can't Beau" I cry
"Don't cry baby" he says wiping my tears away with his thumbs, I look down at my knees.
"What's going to happen between us?" I ask, afraid of the answer, but need to know.
"I don't know baby, I don't know whether we will be able to handle that long distance" he says, breaking my heart more and more. I suppose I basically asked for that.
"I know, I love you" I say, tears streaming my cheeks.
"I love you too, but please don't make this harder than it already is" he says stroking my hair. I can't believe our journey is over.

Beaus POV
Just after Danni leaves for Ruby's I break down in tears smashing anything that I can find. Then I realise the cause. Luke. I run down the stairs, wiping the tears from my face.
"You alright Beau? Where did Danni go?" James asks, disrupting my path.
"Where the fuck is Luke?" I shout. Anger building up inside me. James' face turn serious and looks slightly scared. I have never been this angry In front of him before.
"In the lounge" he says and I run off to find him.
"This is all you're fucking fault" I shout at him, lifting him up by his collar "I hate you"
"What the fuck have I done?" She retaliates, looking slightly scared. Tears streaming my face as I look straight into the eyes of someone who is supposed to be my brother.
"Broke up with ruby, ending me and Danni, life was so much better when you weren't born" I say, not regretting a breath. His face drops as he looks at me, I still stay stern. "youre a selfish, self centred cunt and I hate you" I spit and push him against the wall. "I wish I wasn't going to LA with you, and I wish you were never born"