The Pain Will Gradually Diminish Through This Poem

Still Into Her

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It was 10th Month of the October,
Never ever had thought of falling deeper.
Everyday, my feelings are floating like a river.
Trying enough my best to preclude this feeling.
But who am I to fool myself and kept on lying?
I’m melting everytime you’re making an effort that is so overwhelming.

As I keep on falling
My plans are slowly failing,
Knowing that you’re still talking about your greatest love.
That night, I want it to be removed.
But then you give me those mixed signals.
And even right my poem for you on your journals.

Some days, you are acting like I am not just a friend for you.
The other day, you’re acting like I am just a friend of you.
Everything became so confusing since then.
Because of your confusing acts, my feelings deepen.
The hope in my heart was revived.
Heaviness in my heart is what I felt, hoping to survive.

When everything became smoothly, I felt alive.
Suddenly wants to thank you for making these unknown feelings alive.
But unexpectedly, everything fall apart again.
Everyday heaviness in my heart is what I gain.
I saw how happy you are when you had an interaction with her.
Until realization hitted me, you’re still into her.

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