The Beach

05

"I made love and I thought of you"

Aylin Russell

This was too much to handle. 

Ethan hit me with his car, then gave me his sweater, then kissed me. And the ironic thing is the kiss was the most shocking thing. Yeah, the hit really hurt, but it was kinda my fault too. I was upset and I didn't look when I stormed across the street.

I waited for him for one hour and a half on the beach, my paranoia telling me my father is gonna decide to go there. I could still see this snake's car in front of our house, that made me upset. 

He didn't care I was away. He knew it was because of her, yet he chose her over me. He knows the moment she leaves the house I'll be back, but it looks like he doesn't have interest in kicking her out of there.

Now I'm around five houses from him, he probably doesn't care. I toss my cigarette on the ground, stepping on it with my shoe. I left my carton in Ethan's car and took around 5. Robert doesn't like it when I smoke anyway.

I turn around, seeing his big house in the distance, standing on the sidewalk a few blocks away. It's just like my father and brother's houses, nothing interesting: three floors, lights all over it, making the stone walls glow, big windows that show off his big offices, a big garden and gates in front of it.

I don't wanna go there, but I don't have a choice and I want to see my boyfriend. I haven't seen him in awhile and now instead of feeling happy to finally see him, I feel guilty for what happened in Ethan's car. I feel guilty for liking it.

No, Ethan kissed Jade. Jade liked it. She's single. He wouldn't even look at me if he knew I was Aylin, so that doesn't count. Right?

I sigh to myself and start taking slow steps towards it. He's probably worried, he's probably gonna see the bandage. But I'm freezing out here and It just gets colder so I don't have another choice. 

I take a better hold of my bag on my shoulder, looking around the empty street. My feet are almost giving up, because of tiredness, but the fresh memory with Ethan keeps me wide awake. There is still a little ache in my stomach, but it's not that unbearable as it was an hour ago. When Ethan dropped me here, he told me he will make some of his friends check on me tomorrow. 

It makes me kinda nervous. His friends might have seen me as Aylin too and they can expose me. I don't even know why I'm so worried about them finding out. I just don't want them to hate me. They seem cool, even if one of them hit me with a car. 

Besides I don't have any friends as Aylin. Apparently I don't have my family anymore too. 

My brother is acting mad at me again. He said he had work, but I know damn well that he just doesn't want me in his house. I didn't have any other choice than Robert. 

He's my only one left.

My eyes start burning a bit at the realization, but I quickly blink them away, considering I'm close to his house. I whisper "stop" to myself when I feel them building up again, bringing up my cold hand to my already burning cheeks.

But after a minute when I stop in front of the house, I see him already out on the porch, his gaze dropping on mine right away. He looks good in this bright light, a blue shirt, dress pants, hair slicked back, blue eyes burning in mine. A few feelings I'm not close enough to pick up on flash through his eyes before he rushes down the stairs, headed towards me. 

I feel the need to hold my breath, seeing him almost trip, walking across the garden. After a few seconds, without a word, his arms are wrapping around me, a deep sigh escaping both our lips.