Innocence

Chapter Five

I turn around. Jai is standing behind me.
"What are you doing here?"
"I uh, I felt confident and ready to finally come back. I guess not..." I turn away to hide him from seeing my tears.
Even though I have no feelings for Luke it still pains me to see him because of all he has done to me, and I don't deserve Jai. I can never make Jai happy, not in a million years.
"Madison," he starts and puts his hand on my shoulder. "It's okay. You can talk to me if you need." I look up and his reaction when he sees me crying is heart breaking. I don't want to make him feel this way.
"I'm sorry." I whisper while wet salted tears are rolling silently down my face. He gives me a confused and concerned look and it makes me realize how sorry I actually am for everything. For choosing Luke over him, for making him hold me while he knew he couldn't have me because I was with Luke, for making him feel the way I do.
"I'm sorry!" I sob loud enough so everyone can hear me in the fountains area.
"Shhh it's okay. You need to quiet down or douche pants will hear you..." He called his own brother... Douche pants?! I just stand in front of Jai and sob. Everything Luke has done has made my life a wreck. I feel my legs go weak as I collapse and it all feels so slow motion, then as I fall Jai catches me and just sits on the mall floor with me in his arms sobbing. How could seeing Luke bring so much pain. I know that I will have to get used to seeing people like him, use and treat girls like sh*t but it pains me to see him act so okay, so normal and then theres me.
"Madi," Jai knows I hate being called my full name, "we need to get off the floor..." I can't respond. Coming to the mall was a bad idea. I just sit in his arms shaking and sobbing. I probably look like a wreck. It's a sure good thing that I don't wear make-up. I feel him gulp and nod. He is on the verge of tears, I can feel him shaking. He nods and whispers "okay." To himself then cradles my body and I can feel him moving, walking. I close my eyes and the last thing I remember is someone asking, "Is she alright!?" And Jai answering with "I hope so..."