My brush with Allah

Elena Mustafa

I was in grade 11 and I was going through a very bad depression a very deep deep clinical depression from my time in elementary school and some parts of high school Avenue give up taekwondo and other stuff that wasn't too pleasant and dealing with a psychotic friend. I ended up going insane I had a teacher who was starving me to death and also I was being bullied and being called other names that I didn't know. That did not help my dress level or my depression.  That was when I was six years old I am Elena Mostafa. Mustafa means chosen one in Arabic......One of the 99 names of Muhammad (peace be upon him). When I was on my 17th birthday ..... My father introduced me to poetry he gave me a book calling for days in a verse and I also read it and read other poetry books and read second string for the soul teenager books and found that poetry and writing help since then I've been on the prowl for poetry books. One night one of the side to gauge my ears I saw what looked like a poetry book but it was a book by Sufi Imam called Rumi.   I ended up being out in this was in my neighbours house to pick up the earring in the first place but then I got sidetracked with the roomie book and my neighbour could lend it to me but she said that she was Muslim that's why she couldn't lend it to me but she said if I wanted to learn more about it I could go to her friends place with her and learn more about it. When I was just about around 17 years old the big day came when I had to go and see a psychiatrist for my depression and my psychosis and other things that I thought was my psychosis and I ended up not only on Prozac another medication but I was also a Convert or Revert when I found out about my DNA test to Islam.    Things are getting easier after that in high school when I got her on the meds and I started learning how to pray properly five times a day and actually learning certain things in Arabic. But exams are not easy after a while I wanted to read the book worlds most dangerous places by Robert Young Pelton because he mentioned some thing about Chechnya a place that has been a very interesting place to me since I was a little kid. And I place a mystery.  
I kept praying that the exams will be over and then I would get the books that I wanted worlds most dangerous places. When I got it I dove right into the book and learn more about Islam they're supposed to be a religion of peace instead of a pile of crap that the terrorist turned into. And that you are to respect everyone in return. I learned about and was able to identify myself with Chechens from Chechnya.  I only was able to identify with the civilian night with a terrorist thank God we're outside looking at my phone right now but anyway they were supposed to have a bad temper when they get riled up or when they have a bad day but we usually they're good nice people that was Me in. A nutshell.  
It was 1000 page book but I finished it it was in half of the summer holiday and I wanted to learn more about my background to see if I was also charged in an hour even as much as Muslim or what my origins were.  So I did some thing that I think God gave me that I wouldn't of expected myself to do I looked into my memory box and fist out the journals from my both mother and father who were adopting me at the time and read Word for Word cover to cover each journal or diary and I found out I was Turkish and gypsy Romania actually and I was of the Mustapha family one yearAfter that I looked up Mustafa and found out it was an Islamic Name called chosen one word choices again one of the 99 name is Mohammed and I was able to realize that I want to revert dress from that but I also was very emotional and reading the journals that my mother and father role while adopting me. It was heartbreaking to hear that I had to lose my birth family even though they were deadbeats and I had to and I was on route come with emotion that they actually love me both biological and adoptive parents and then I had a twin brother Three years my senior. Named Nicusr.   I looked him up on Facebook van and found out that he was no better than the people they were dragon my religion so he's an on a ledge and in the mud and I had to block him and report him for terrorism. Then I had to alert my parents that I have found my birth brother and that he was actually an extremist. It was a very sad moment for me right there. But he was replaced by two other brothers Jonathan and Brian. I didn't need Nicu once and for all because he was just going to be a pain in my ass in another ticket to Guantánamo Bay. And I have been threatened with that in elementary school. That's why I was going through such a deep depression in the first part of this chapter. So you know now the backstory of my conversion or reversion to Islam. When I was 30 artist sorry I was going to get my DNA tested just to be sure I was Chechen Arab and other stuff.  Is first started off with Sampson in Turkish Greek and out Benny and as well as Bosnian and Romanian and Russian and Kazakhstami.  But then over the years it started to add into other different cultures like Iraqi Arab not just Saudi and also Iranian Afghan and Pakistani, And Wieger. I am now very.  And I learned that my name biological last name Mustafa was meaning that I was a descendant of the prophet (peace be upon him) And why I was able to see angels most of my life.  I have became a very peaceful activist for Saturday at East Turkestan to bed and also do you have Guantánamo Bay closed now because of me but because the other people were suffering too I learn about human rights. So that is basically the story behind the story. I also like video games at the time and normal stuff that that younger people are under the age of 40 liked.