Queen of the Sound

As the World Caves In

I still want Deidara... but can I honestly say that after what happened today? Is that really fair of me? I love him but there's no way that I could look him in the eye ever again. I wish this never happened. I wish I would've just let him nap with me. Why was I so stubborn? Why was I so goddamn stubborn?! This is all my fault. I hope he doesn't find me anymore. I don't deserve him.

O: "YN? Is everything alright?"

You don't answer him.

O: "Did I offend you?"

You still don't answer. You're lost in your own little world and you don't want to come out. These are the times Deidara has always been there for. These are the times just his presence makes everything so much better. You're stuck staring into the corner of the room until Orochimaru turns your head with his hand to face him. A tear runs down your face.

O: "What's wrong?"

YN: "W-Why did you bring me here?"

O: "Because I love you. What's wrong?"

Maru strokes the side of your face with his hand.

YN: "If you truly love someone... you wouldn't cheat on them, right?"

O: "Deidara on your mind?"

YN: "Isn't that obvious?"

Orochimaru hugs you tightly, hiding your face in his chest... the same way Deidara holds you.

O: "To answer your question, if you truly love someone, you wouldn't cheat on them. You wouldn't dream of it. I know you love Deidara, but if that were true, why didn't you fight back when I kissed you?"

You tense up at his words.

O: "Look... the Akatsuki are probably looking for us now. I won't force you to stay, but like you said... you probably won't be able to face your boyfriend. Not in the same sense anyway. I've had fun with you, and don't want you to leave, but I won't force you to stay if you do not wish to."

YN: "I think I know what I have to do."

(Deidara's POV)

We're reaching Otogakure. I can feel it.

I hope you're there, YN. I'm not leaving without you. We're running out of daylight. It's currently around 19:00. When I see you, I'm never gonna let you go again. If that bastard even did so much as poke you... he's going six feet under.