A letter to my Romeo

The Letter

"She was all I had.."

A few days have passed and I've been feeling worse. So I grabbed the Notebook he gave me and started writing in it.

I wrote a few pages and decided I was going to leave a letter for him.

More specifically a love letter and a goodbye letter.

I left the Notebook with a slightly cracked spine because that's how I liked my books. I started to thing of many things I could write in the letter.

I ended up with a lot of things but most importantly I wanted to tell him through the Notebook how much I loved him, because I knew that I would run out of time before I get to the topic about love to him.

I start off with a simple Dear Theo. As I write on the page my handwriting gets worse and worse. I'm shaking to much but I put all my strength into writing that letter for him.

I want him to know how much love I had put into our friendship over the years. I want him to know how long I've loved him. I want him to know that everything is going to be okay..

After some time writing the letter I finished it and decided to read over it to make sure I hadn't missed anything.

Dear Theo,

It's going to be hard saying what I'm going to in this letter. But, I wanted to say that I'm sorry that I left you soon, and that I broke our promise. I didn't know this was how things were going to end for us. All though the importance in this letter it to know that I've always loved you. I loved you since the day we met. I just didn't want to ruin our friendship, or well I didn't want to get heartbroken. I'm sorry I didn't end up telling you about my sickness. And please know that I deeply wanted to tell you about it, it just was hard for me. I hope you understand. I will be telling the nurse to hand this to you, I don't know how it's going to end up in your hands, but I really hope you do because of what I'm going to say right now. Move on please. I don't want you to be sad because of me. Move on! Go meet a beautiful women and have her kids! Make sure you live your life the fullest. Live it for me. I'm really sorry I left you, you should know it. As I write this letter thinking of you, just know you were my everything, you were my first love, my everything, my Romeo.. So this Letter is for you, My Romeo. Also, tell my parents that I love them and that I will be watching over them, and tell them that they also need to move on in life. Now for you go meet your Juliet even if she's not me..

With all my heart, the one and only, Mia <3

As I read over it and decided it was good enough I put the string where this letter is and closed the book putting it under my pillow for now.

As soon as I put the Notebook under my pillow the nurse came in.

"Whatcha got there?" She said smiling and coming up to my iv thing. "Oh just a book someone gave me to write in." I said watching her fill the bag.

"Oooh nice!" She said looking at me smiling. "Is it a boy by any chance?" She said while raising her eyebrows while having a goofy smile. "Yeah, He's my best friend.." I said.

"Is he the one who gave you that necklace you always play with?" She said nodding towards the necklace on my neck. "Yeah, it's now my prized possession!" I said laughing a little. "That's cute!" She said sorting out my meds. "Alright here's all you take for right now, I'll see you in a little bit!" She said walking to the door leaving as I say my goodbye and waving.

She's my favorite nurse I said in my head as my parents walked in the room with my sister. "Hey guys!" I said smiling at them. My sister had this big book with glittery things on the front.

As my sister plopped down on my bed and my parents sad down in chairs beside the bed. She put down the book and I finally figured out what it was.

The wedding book or well the book to plan the wedding. Even thought their wedding is soon they still haven't planned a thing for it.

"Okay! We need to get started on this bad boy!" She said wide eyed looking at the book. I started laughing. And she looked at me with a confused look. "What?" She said.

"Oh nothing, let's get planning!!" I said excited to get to help her plan it.

We spent the next few hours trying to plan the perfect wedding in such short time. All we have figured out is the venue, the theme, and the guest list. We'll save the other stuff for another day.

"When are you going dress shopping?" I said curious. "Maybe tomorrow?" She said looking at our parents. "Fine with me!" My mother said looking at my father. "Yeah that's fine!" He said smiling at her.

"We planned on FaceTiming you so you don't miss out on the dress shopping! If you're up for it of course!" Jasmine said.

"Yeah that's fine with me!" I said back.

As the day went on Theo was still on my mind..