BTS: Behind The Scenes

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(A/N: this gif of Namjoon is devastating. suffer with me~ pls & thank you<33)

"...I think.. I think I must like you."

*NAMJOON'S POV*

She stares at me, not saying a word, and I smile after a few seconds of silence.

"Sorry, what??", she asks me, obviously confused by the random confession, and I chuckle.

'Saffron, I like you... I'm so sorry I'm only realizing it now. Jungkook is basically my little brother, but... something snapped in me when I saw Jungkook kiss you. It scared me, how much I wanted to beat him up for thinking he could just... do that. That just made me realize my true feelings. How could I have been so blind?'*

At least, that was what I was going to say. (*referring to above paragraph)

But what I actually ended up saying was:

"Never mind. I'm sorry I upset you, can you please forgive me? I can't go without talking to you, it's killing me Saff!!", I pout, and try to convince Saffron to give in, and hopefully also forget about my confession.

Thankfully, after a few pouts, a small, tentative smile forms on her face, and I smile big.

"Fine. But only because I don't want to avoid you like the plague anymore. It's too hard to avoid you when I come visit the guys anyways.", she says, and my smile fades a tiny, microscopic amount, but I still grin.

Wrapping her up in a huge, bear hug, I twirl her around as she squeals and tries to get me to stop spinning.

As I place her down softly, I check her expression, and she seems innocently happy, and clueless. I hate using that word to describe her, but it would be much better for her to forget I said I liked her.

I don't want to end up hurting her.. even accidentally. No, never.

Not like he did.

*END NAMJOON'S POV HERE*

When I see that Namjoon looks relieved at the face I'm making when he stops spinning me around, I finally relax my face a little bit, but keep up the façade. I can't think about what he just said out loud, not right now.

"I'm gonna go see if Yoongi is back yet!", I say, and pretty much sprint out of there.

Finally away from Namjoon's prying eyes, I aimlessly walk around the place, trying to decide if I should go see Jungkook or not.

'I don't want another incident to happen... But I want to make sure he's okay... Man.. What to do, what to do..', I think to myself.

Too deep in my thoughts, I run straight into someone, and they grab my shoulders to keep me from falling back.

"Oh! Sorry.... Oh Jimin...!", I make eye contact with a smiling Jimin, and he smiles back.

"Saffron! You've gotta watch where you're going! You're gonna get hurt!", he scolds me gently, and I grin.

I can always count on Jimin to put a smile on my face, he's always such a sweetheart. 

"Thanks, Jimin, I'll be more careful. But I mean I know you'll watch out for me soooo...", I tease, and he lightly flicks my forehead.

"Hey hey, I might not always be here you know...! Ahh who am I kidding? I'll always watch out for you.", he smiles, and I blush.

He always knows exactly what to say...

A few hours later, I'm hanging out with Jin and Hoseok, trying to beat the game, Getting over it. We're all raging a bit and getting quite frustrated at how hard it can be. 

With a groan I finally toss in the towel. 

"That's it. If I play any longer I'm gonna lose my mind. I'm gonna go get some fresh air.", I say, and get on my feet.

As I'm looking at the stars out on the balcony outside, I hear footsteps coming up behind me. I'm soon joined by Jin.

"You good, Saff? Did something happen?", he asks me, and I feel a pang of guilt.

'How do I tell him that I've done something with his brothers? And now all of it is catching up to me..?', I think to myself. 

I turn to him, a gentle smile on my face.

"I'm all good, Jin. Promise. I really appreciate you checking on me.", I lie out of my teeth. It's not like I can tell the truth anyways.

He raises an eyebrow at me. Of course he sees right through me.

"You're lying, sweet girl. But I won't press. Just promise to tell me if any of my brothers do anything.. okay? We're all men after all.", he gently says, and I melt all over again.

I turn back again to tell him he's truly such a kind soul, when I lose my footing on a leaf that had fallen, and my world turns sideways. I squeeze my eyes shut, and brace for impact... that never comes.

When I slowly open my eyes, Jin is staring down at me with his big brown eyes, and they're unreadable.

I sheepishly try and get back on my own two feet, and he grabs my waist with one hand and takes my other hand in his. As I stand, he doesn't let go. When I notice, I try to get out of his grasp, mostly because I'm embarrassed, and he maintains his hold.

I look up at him, and immediately it's like I can read his thoughts.

'Oh this man wants me.'

A/N: next chapter will be steamier than past chapters ;)