BTS: Behind The Scenes

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Eyes wide, I stand in shock as Namjoon's lips meet mine.

"Mmph--!", I gasp when our lips make contact, and he instantly pulls away.

"huh--OH SHIT--", he yells out, and we both stare at each other, eyes wide.

"Na-Namjoon???!! Did.... did you just?????", I ask, and he shakes his head extremely fast.

"SAFFRON! I'm so sorry! I was trying to kiss your cheek and you.. looked over? I think???", Namjoon stumbles over his words for the first time since I've met him, and I'm dumbfounded.

"Joon... Joon, it's okay.. um.. get going, you're gonna get in trouble.", I tell him, trying to a appear calm, and it seems to work.

"Are you sure?? I'm so so sorry, Saffron, I really don't know how it happened..", he tells me, and it almost makes me sad how sorry.. and regretful he seems.

"Is kissing me really that horrible..?", I mumble to myself as I turn away, and Namjoon makes a confused sound.

"Huh? Did you say something?", he asks me, and I shake my head. 

"Bye Namjoon..", I say, and turn around to go back inside.

"H-huh.? Saff..", I can hear him say, but I don't turn around.

After closing the door and locking it, I slump down to the cold floor.

'Did I... did we really just...', I questioned myself, and regretted everything that just happened.

After a while, I finally hear a door close and a car driving away.

*Time skip lol*

It's been about a month since my visit to the guys' dorm.

I've been ignoring all of Namjoon's texts, calls, KakaoTalk texts, you name it. I'm sure he's wondering what's going on. But I'm still so upset over how clueless he is towards my feelings.

I've met with some of the guys a couple times since, because we've all gotten quite attached to each other.

The atmosphere with Jungkook still is weird. He doesn't necessarily avoid me, but we haven't really talked since the... incident, and it really upsets me. But what can I do?

Yoongi and I have been working on the collab, and it's coming along really nicely. Yoongi refused to do a cover of another song when he can produce a song for us, so he's been doing precisely that.

I've been covering some of their songs, and hinting at a 'big collab' coming to my fans, and it's been interesting to see what they've been commenting on my socials.

About a week ago, I filmed a dance video with Hoseok, and I'm debating on when to drop it. Both our faces are hidden, but I know the fans will know if they were to look closely. My fans are amazing... but I know there will be more than a little backlash. Hoseok's been telling me that it'll be okay, and that his company will take care of us. 

But I'm still not sure. I'm not with their company, so why would his company protect me?

For now though, I don't really have a choice.

I unlock my phone, and pull up Hoseok's contact.

Hoseok picks up almost right away, and he responds cheerfully.