We meet again.

I messed it up

                             Ava
"Ava!!! Wake up, did you forget that you have school."

I overslept and I completely forgot about the physics test. Oh my god, just because of the drama my academics is going to get affected.

"Yes, mom I am up, I am ready." But am I prepared for the test? no.
First of all I am bad at this subject and I didn't even open my book yesterday.

I can't do anything, if mom gets to know I didn't prepare for the test she is going to ground me for life or for years or I don't know. Oh my god Ava you can't overthink.

I have to learn to go with the flow as there is no choice anyway.
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"Ava, hi" Kayla came up to my seat.
Oh I completely forgot about how coldly I told her that I'd talk later.
God Ava this isn't right. I have to apologise to Kayla.

"Hey I am so sorry for yesterday. I didn't mean to-" while I was speaking Kayla cut me off
"Noooo why are you apologising?? U didn't do anything, there is nothing to apologise about, girl."

"No but I acted really cold after the incident."

"You did not, to be honest it was Noah's fault, he threw your food and he deserved the splash on his face."Kayla said.
I smiled awkwardly.

"Anyway Ava, you splashing the ice tea on him was so hilarious. I wish I could watch it everyday" Kayla starts laughing.

"Oh my god stop you are embarassing me." I tell her dying in embarassment.
"That was just a reflex to what he did Kayla, that's all."

"I know Ava, I was there. He got so scared that he didn't turn up to school today or what? I can't see him."

I realised Noah actually didn't turn up to school. Did I do too much was I wrong for doing that, was it too extreme, there is no way one can miss a test right? I don't know, why am I feeling worse now. He was the one who started it.

"Students get seated, I am distributing the papers."
When I saw the paper I knew I was gonna fuck it up.

The test was finally over and honestly I don't even know what I wrote.

Sometimes I don't understand why do we need to work so hard for all this when we don't even get paid. Me and my irrelevant thoughts.
"Ava, well you look really pale, so I won't ask you about the test."

"Well doesn't matter now does it. I can't even get a good enough mark after studying so without studying it's just messed up."

"Come on Ava, don't be so harsh on yourself. Things happen and I am sure you are gonna do amazing in the next test." Kayla smiles.
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Today's day wasn't that good either, I took a shower and relaxed a bit to make myself feel better.

Turned on the beautiful lights in my room, put on some music, took my favourite food spaghetti which mom made before leaving for work.

I started to scroll up my social media and Noah's account popped up in my suggestions. Out of curiosity I clicked on his account to see his posts. It's normal to see your classmate's post anyway It won't make you a creep.That's how I assured myself.

He had 20 posts, he never posted his own picture rather it was with his band members or his guitar. I realised he posted a picture today but it was his friends and obviously he took the picture cuz he wrote that in the caption 'Oversight at the Grinders Cafè
Pc:-obviously me duh.'

So they went there today again, I thought Noah was upset because of me so he didn't go to school today and there he was hanging out with his friends. I was feeling bad and worrying about it unnecessarily.

He would feel upset , never! I laugh to myself.

Enough looking at his account for today. How bored am I to look at the account of the guy who threw my food.
Ava you gotta have self respect.