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Chapter Ten

All coming back
Angel’s POV
I was excited to go to school today and it may be because of a boy named Shawn, I really didn’t know what’s wrong with me? But I’ve been thinking of him and actually didn’t get much sleep. I guess this was what you call love at first site.
I had already taken my bath and done my usual coverage so all I was waiting for was how to get to school, I had been following the twins but I really wasn’t in the mood for question and I have been avoiding Aunt, she had seen me without makeup and surprisingly, she hasn’t even bothered me which was weird. She didn’t even ask me for dinner yesterday like she was ignoring my existence. I wonder why?
Either way I had to lower my ego and ask the twins for a ride, I still hadn’t spoken to Ryan personally. So when River was driving I decided to apologize for overreacting.
‘Sorry about the other day, I really overreacted didn’t I?’ I apologize, he smiled so  I decide to read his thought to confirm whether or not he still had ill thought towards me.
She actually didn’t over react, hopes she forgives me. I feel really guilty for ever trying to use her.
River did warn me.
‘I’m sorry’. Ryan says quietly, I give him a smile patting him, I wasn’t really the type to hold grudges
‘It’s fine, I guess we are officially friends’. I said giving him my phone, he looks at me questioning
‘Your number?’ I told him
‘Uh are you that desperate?’ he teases, we both laugh and I knew that this was the start of a beautiful friendship
When we reached school, I got down automatically scanning my eyes for shawn. As I looked around the hall, I suddenly remember Xavier.
It was like a slap of reality
I kissed a stranger, why did I suddenly feel guilty?
It’s not like Xavier remained single after I left? I wonder how he was doing? I’m so stupid, I didn’t even ask the triplets about him.
As if on cue, I see Eva talking to some guy, I ran towards her pulling her away from him and into an empty classroom not even minding if I was rude and they were having a serious conversation
‘Eva, I’m sorry about that but I really got to know something. How’s Xavier? I can’t believe I didn’t ask you all this while. Did he grow taller? Got a girlfriend?’ I ask nervously, I didn’t know what the result will be.
If he moved on, then I’ll try to
‘Angel stop being paranoid, Xavier is fine, quite gorgeous now, he’s the star quarter back and got girls fawning over him but I haven’t  seen him with a girl other than you and I don’t think he has gotten over you. Most people think he’s gay because of his lack of girls. The guys used to joke about you already moving on and that day he went berserk, said something about finding you when he’s eighteen’. Eva said patting me.
I felt relief wash over me and still felt guilty about kissing someone else but him
Xavier is my first love and I don’t know what came over me that made me kiss that Shawn.
If he can wait for me, then I will too. I pray fate bring us together again.
What if you guys never see each other again? Will you become a nun all because of first love?
I will get over him if I never see him again but not now maybe in college, something tells me I’ll see him again and I don’t want him to be disappointed in me.
I still remember years ago when we first met….

‘Fireeeeeeeeeee, ha ha fireeeeeeeee saasha bugiwane wow wow’. I screamed out loud, I didn’t care that so many people were watching me, I was listening to Fire by BTS with my earpiece, it was a Korean song hence the lyrics even though I’m sure that wasn’t what they said.
I’ve found something that can comfort me now, BTS my babies. I loved them, it was Danny my cousin that recommended I hear them out and I wasn’t disappointed. This was actually what led me to be an Army
As I danced around the park without caring about anything, someone suddenly tapped me. It was Xavier, he had this grin on his face like he was dying to tell me something.
‘Weird choice of song’. He said, that was the first words he told me, I was going to ignore him but not before defending my babies.
‘My babies are not weird’. I pouted staring into his blue eyes, he laughed telling me he knew the song too and was a fan and that’s how we ended up getting coffee together with one earpiece in both our ears listening to the song.
Our love story wasn’t that of the good girl and bad boy that bummed into each other. It was more of the story a sweet old couple would tell their children about.

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I don’t know how long I stood there, I felt a tap from River who  brought me back to reality.
‘The bell rang’. He said, Xavier, it’s been two years since I last saw him
I miss him, I miss him so much
I’ve been trying all along to tug that feeling of longing deep within and today it feels like it’ll explode
Tears were threatening to spill out as I hugged River, he looked at me probably trying to figure out why I looked like I was going to cry.
I couldn’t believe I was going to betray him thinking about Shawn who I knew nothing about. He didn’t deserve me
I couldn’t help but cry, I sound like a whiny bitch now don’t I? I wasn’t crying only for Xavier I was crying about everything. What my dad did to me, My last words with him. I can’t believe I had been trying to get rid of everything. I had been trying to change myself be a new person but all I had been doing is digging a hole for myself. I suddenly start to remember that night, where everything crumbled.
It’s all coming back, It’s all my fault. It shouldn’t have happened.
I let everyone down

River’s POV

I laugh as I part way with Ryan, looks like he and Angel are now friends. I was heading towards my locker when I saw Angel in an empty classroom, it looked like she was sad and Eva her friend was poking her probably trying to get her out of that trance. I walked into the classroom and Eva took it as a cue to leave mouthing  at me to take care of her. I sat down for a while not wanting to disturb whatever land she is in but when the bell rings I decided to bring her back into earth. I tapped her staring at her face, she looked so much different with makeup on.
I’m not going to lie and say she’s beautiful either way, I believe that it’s what’s in the pot that matters not the pot itself.
I tap angel again and she seemed to respond to me
‘The bell rang’. I told her, she seemed to want to cry and I was so shocked when she hugged me muttering how she misses him
Who is him?
Don’t tell me the person who gave her the hickey broke her heart. Who is he in the first place?
Angel suddenly starts to cry heavily hugging me tight, her makeup smeared all her face and she stained my black top with makeup. Why was she crying? I thought she was going to stop but she suddenly starts panting leaving me alone. She starts shaking furiously and it looked like she couldn’t breath, her face starts turning blue so I did the best I can scream for help while holding her.
Some teachers rushes in looking at Angel with understanding
Had this happened before?
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