SHOW YOURSELF

Chapter 11

Angel’s POV
I wake up to see River staring at me, I try to remember what happened, and the memories rushes back to meChill, breathe in, breathe out, I keep that repeatedly before coming back to normal, the last time I had a panic attack was a week before living with the twins.I actually didn’t have vivid nightmares only once or twice when I moved there, I felt disappointed in myself, I thought I was getting better.
‘Are you alright?’ River asks, I totally forgot about him, uh wonder how I’ll explain everything to him.River is actually a sweet guy, he doesn’t have any reason for me to hate him. Infact he has been understanding with everything going on.
‘I’m fine, sorry for making you miss class’. I muttered, standing up from the bed. I weighed my options
Option one: tell River and he’ll hate  psycho
Option two: Talk to the therapist and risk being called mentally ill and admitting me to a mental hospital
Option three: Tell Tami and she’ll tell no one and be understanding.
Option four: Tell no one and keep everything bottled in.
I choose option three cause Tami was cool like that, if I told her I could fly she’ll tell me to.I totally forgot about River again and again he was staring at me, I give him a small smile heading for the door, we were in the nurse office so I went straight for my locker. The bell rings signaling the end of second period. I had P.E class next which in fact just made my day more hell as I open my locker, I catch a glimse of myself in the mirror.Oh no, makeup was smeared everywhere and my wig was barely hanging. I took my makeup bag and went to the bathroom. I washed off my face completely before reapplying it. I sigh as I look at myself in the mirror, for how long will this go on?
When will I show the world my true self?
When I finished I headed to the gym to see everyone already dressed and they were all staring at me.I ran to the girls locker wearing the uniform which consists of a top which was pink and sweat pants to match. I told the P.E teacher why I was late and since this was not my first time he wasn’t surprised. Probably heard River screaming for help
None of my friends were in this class so I was pretty lonely, as I scan around the gym for familiar faces I see River and Ryan talking to some boys. I was going to use my powers but decided to respect their privacy.After all he did help me.
‘Come around students, we are going to play ball today so divide yourself into two. Two groups of boys and two groups of girls. Y’all can pick your leader who’ll pick your team mates’. Coach says, Lisa was the leader of group A and she chose some girls while Ella was the leader of Group B who had no choice but to pick me.This game was to catch the ball and throw it back to the other side where they are also expected to catch it.We started the game Group A boys vs Group B girls. The leader of the boys was my major bully Sam also the guy that brought the dare in the first place.As the game went on the boys were obviously winning and I didn’t do anything I just ran around the place acting like I was interested. Life was going perfect before the son of a beach Sam decided to tell the boys to attack me as they were passing the ball to the other side, it hit me straight in the stomach, I wasn’t going  to react but when it happened for the fifth time and I coughed blood I lost my patience. I gave the ball to someone to throw it and when the ball was targeted towards me I caught it hard and with all the anger in me I threw the ball with little force to Sam. Didn’t want to kill him
The ball hit Sam right on the head and he stumbled to the floor, the coach who wasn’t even paying attention to us saw Sam spitting blood on the floor and told him to go to the nurse as he might get a concussion.I winked at him grinning, because of my actions which pissed the boys more. I decided just to finish them once and for all.
Skip to Two minutes later, half of the boys are on the bleachers groaning. I felt giddy, excited and euphoric. I was finally defending myself and it felt right. I was about hitting another guy when River dragged me out of the place, I thought the coach would at least care but he didn’t seem to be bothered one bit.
‘What?’ I screamed at River wanting to go and finish off those boys
‘Two wrongs doesn’t make a right, I know they’re all bullies but I expected you to keep your cool like you’ve been doing these past two years’. He says in a calm voice, I grudgingly let it go. He actually made sense, I don’t want to be as shallow as them.River left me alone and as I was walking towards my locker I saw a poster about the schools annual masquerade ball, it was cringe but it seems fun.The rest of my day was uneventful and I went to bed with one thought in my head.
What am I truly?