Hi guys its Sam here.
For the past 2-3 weeks I have been very ill. At first I thought I had the stomach flu but apparently I was way off. I decided to share this information with you guys because you deserve to know why I dont update as much, and you guys are like family to me.
I have lost 15 pounds in the course of my illness. I don't eat some days because I know the effect later. And when I do eat somehow someway I always throw it back up. I am in constant pain 24/7, and I have really stupid medical professionals saying I need to be put to sleep and have a tube shoved down my throat. When in reality I could just take a blood or breath test and it would show just as much as the tube shoving down the throat thing.
I just want to figure this out. Right away. I wanna go back to my old life, I even miss school (I know hard to believe) I've missed atleast 2 weeks. I fear that if I don't get better I will have to stay in the hospital for a couple days.
Funny story, I actually have an extreme phobia of needles, and I had to get my blood drawn. And I tried fo relax and sit back, but nothing worked. My friend who I was texted told me to listen to One Direction(and Harry Styles Don't let me go) And I did. Their voices calmed me down, and I actually started crying. Just because they have this huge effect on me and other girls. And I can't thank them enough because you guys and them keep me going.
And I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you guys for everything, you make my day less shitty and bad, your support means everything to me. I love you so much, and you can talk to me anytime and I swear I will do my best to answer.
All the love and more.
-sam x.
