I think this is my one and only chance to tell ouma how I feel about him...but i'm just not confident enough. My inner voice is screaming at me to tell him but every time I open my mouth to speak I simply can't find the words. To be honest no offence to....my inner voice but it's really not helping all too much....the longer I stayed silent the closer ouma looked to crying. The last thing I would want is to make him cry...i would feel awful...i'm over thinking this aren't i...
"O-ouma-ku-" "it's not fine if you don't feel the same...dont worry about it" he mumbled as he released me from his grip "n-no! Ouma i-i feel the same I...just couldn't find the words" I clarified quickly. He stared at me in silence before muttering "really?" "Yes really! In fact ever since I first saw you ive wanted to...." I trailed off, once again forgetting the word I was looking for. "Fuck me?" Ouma tried to finish my sentence for me but he chose a very....dirty answer causing my face to burn up with blush "Eh?! N-no! Er- well I mean I wouldn't be opposed to- i-i don't have a...theres nowhere to...p-put anything" he laughed at my flustered stutters and ran his finger down my chest "too easy~" ouma said with a surprisingly flirty tone causing me to get even more flustered.
"I-i wanted to say that....i want to be your...um...friend?" "We're already friends...do you mean boyfriend?" I pressed my fingers together nervously. That was the word I was looking for! "Um...y-yeah I want to be your boyfriend" he giggled softly "O-o-ouma-" "stop calling me that!" He interrupted, his demeanor completely switching as he crossed his arms "just say my name: kokichi" "huh?" He slowed down his speech to an almost mocking degree "Ko...ki...chi....say it" he commanded. I sighed softly "k-kokichi" "good boy~...now roll over!" "I-i'm not a dog!" He giggled once again then his smile faded "kiiboyyyyy I'm hungry" he whined dramatically as he leaned against me" I sighed softly as I stood up "I'll go get you food....I'll be right back" "don't die!" He said as I walked out of his dorm.
Despite the fact he told me *not* to die I felt kind of insulted....
As soon as I left the dorm I heard someone banging on one of the doors. I felt worry immediately overcome me as I walked towards the dorm the noise was coming from. It was Momota "s-stop that! You'll break the door!" I yelled. Surprisingly he stopped when I told him too "kiibo! Thank god you have to get me out of here!" He said desperately "....i'm s....sorry but you're sick....i cannot let you out until-" "I'm not sick!" He interrupted "....look I faked it I faked the whole thing" he confessed. My eyes widened in shock. "That....that can't be....your eyes were" he sighed "I....i got Angie to make me some special contacts that put those weird circles in my eyes okay? Now can you let me out already?" "N-no! You tried to kill kokichi!" He paused before saying "I did it because I didn't want anyone else to get sick...."
"Why would you try to kill me if you were faking" "To make the disease believable....but I might've gone a little too far" it makes sense...when harukawa touched kokichi she got sick in seconds but chabashira didn't....because the disease wasn't real! "I actually thought I was going to die! I was horrified!" "Yeah....sorry for scaring you....i wish you didn't go to tenko though she messed me up pretty good..." I couldn't believe what I was hearing despite it making sence..."Y-you're a madman! I'll make sure everyone knows what you've done!" "You got to understand where I'm coming from....i just wanted to save everyone from the disease" my eyes narrowed.
I thought when we killed the mastermind and did away with those creepy robotic bears we wouldn't have to deal with this kind of stuff....how mistaken I was. How STUPID I was!
".....please excuse my harsh tone but WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU" I yelled "you put someone's LIFE in danger just because you wanted to be a hero!? You disgust me!"
All of the emotions I've been holding back for the past few weeks flew out of me as I yelled at Momota. For twenty minutes I chewed him out until I finally had nothing more to say. I felt awful about it but it also felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I let out a long sigh as I rested my head against the door "....i'm sorry....but i truly, honestly, despise you....please understand?" It was silent as I waited for his response before he mumbled "I get it...." "Thank you" then I walked away from the door, not letting him out. Someone else will let him out eventually.
I can't believe I was so hard on him...i should apologize...wait n-no i shouldn't he almost killed kokichi! But I was so harsh and I definitely shouldn't have taken all of my stress out on him....God I really was programmed for forgiveness wasn't I...he's an attempted murderer....b-but he's my classmate....b-but- b-but....
I need a break....
I sighed softly as I entered the library. Saihara-kun also just so happened to be there but I didn't mind all that much. "Hello saihara..." I muttered as a greeting "kiibo? Are you okay? You don't look very good..." I sat next to him with a grumble "....i'm fine....just a little stressed is all....thats why I came here actually" he nodded in understanding "ah...i get it..." I decided to change the subject for the sake of (what was left of) my sanity "um...can I...read that with you?" I asked timidly "Oh of course! It's Sherlock Holmes I-i really think you'd like it" he said with a smile as he turned the book towards me so I could read as well "Sherlock Holmes? I've never heard of that...." "It's a detective series I like....um Sherlock and his partner..."
He went on a thirty minute rant about Sherlock Holmes and how great he thought it was. It was nice to listen too and I've never seen saihara that interested in anything before.
