Twilight Continued - The Lost Queen

Chapter 23 - Renesmee - Second Chances

" Before you say anything ness this is Armen she is brilliant & has been part of the court for centuries. "

Chapter 23 - Renesmee - Second Chances

I arrive in my chambers. I don't know why but ever since I got here I feel right. I've never felt right in my old life but once we winnowed her & I looked over my subjects and my family for the first time ever I felt like I really belonged. My mum felt it too but she won't admit it, I've been feeling distant from my family the last few years even Jacob, the secrets are always the secrets. This place has secrets, good and bad. I can feel it. But these secrets aren't being kept from me there beckoning for me to find them out, unlike in the other realm. I'm going to stay. I'm not saying I'll never go back but i want to stay here for know this is my new life this is my second chance.

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When I get to my room there is a dress that's black and it's basically 2 panels of fabric & a small rope decorated with diamonds that ties around my waist. My hair falls over my shoulders in big chestnut colored waves & a diamond crown gets waved into my hair. My makeup is minimal & natural. When i'm done jake comes into my room & looks at me in should before speaking.

" What are you wearing?! " he yells.

" Clothes! " I say back with a pressing tone.

" Those are not clothes that are fabric waiting to be turned into clothes! "

" Jake. " my tone softens " Jake this is my new life. "

" What about our old one? " he whispers tears start flowing down his cheeks.

" Our old one hasn't been good for a long time, you know that. "

" So the Volturi are dead we start a new life " he says

" Jake, that's what I'm saying, we start a new life....Here! "

" Ness I could never live here, this isn't my world! "

" Jake you're an immortal wolf what do you mean this isn't your world? "

" I mean I'm not made for this place! "

" Jake, do this for me! "

" Nessie, all I've ever done is for you! I imprinted on you, but maybe I was just supposed to protect you, be a brother figure, maybe I wasn't supposed to be anything more. "

Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I choke out the next words.

" Jake I'll always love you but..but your right asking you to stay here is to much and I'm not going back there, this is a world that needs my leadership now i'm sorry"

He pulls me into a hug then whispers in my ear.

" Forever Ness...Forever and Ever "

Then he is out the door before my legs buckle beneath me and another round of sobbing hits me.

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After a while my family leaves. I hug my parents goodbye along with Rose & Emmet & Jasper and Alice. I say bye Carlisle & Esme but skip jacob. They all support me staying here & I promise I will visit soon & I promise my mother we will talk over the bond. After Adrian gets back we winnow into Pyrthian, the night court to be exact. I'm greeted by an ocean to one side where on a beach to the other a towering castle just as beautiful I look over and see a fae couple playing next to the is a child I would assume to be they're child they see us & wave. When we get to the patio they were the high lord wastes no time on introductions he simply says.

" Hello I'm Rhysand High lord of the night court this is the high lady my mate Feyre Archeron & this is our son Nix " he says Feyre smiles and Nix gives me a hug around my legs. I chuckle & pick him up.

" My you have a strong grip Nix " I say with a smile. He giggles then says.

" Do you want to go flying with me? "

" I would love to go flying later now I need to talk with your parents "

I put him down & he runs around the garden. Then Feyre says.

" I'm sorry Cassian, Rhysand and Aziel taught him to fly a week ago & now that's all he wants to do. "

" Oh it's ok I love children "

" Oh " Rhysand says " Do you have any? "

My face darkens, remembering everything every memory jake & I had every kiss every smile I simply reply.

" No. "

After that we drop the subject. I recount my life and the volturi everything but I leave out jacob. Feyre & Rhysand tell me about the war in there world how they meet everything the Adrian pulls Rhysand aside & feyre & i walk down through the garden she turns to me & hugs me I'm taken by the gesture then I realize what It means, she's saying cry let it out its ok. So I do i weep into her shoulder feeling her arms around me is comforting.

" I know what it's like " she whispers " trying to keep people out of your mind the uncertainty but I'm here i saw it in your eyes today you had a lover " I nod and she continues getting it all right " he didn't believe in the realm didn't except it you want children that's why you loved Nix so much. You're welcome here whenever you like. From now on your part of our life from now on you are part of our family you are always welcome here. We will always love you. "

Then Nix comes up to me and hugs my legs. I look down at him then say.

" come on buddy let's go flying "

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After giving me a brief flying lesson Rhysand lets me shoot into the sky I hear him yell.

" You're a natural! "

Then I hear nothing. I'm lost in the clouds I soar. My wings are cold but a good cold I love. In this moment I escape the world I forget sobut my family and jacob I forget |I have a country to run a realm to run. I just think about Feyre how she accepted me immediately, Nix for just wanting to fly & Adrian for helping me except this world I'm now part of this i where I belong this I where I want to be everything is so perfect Till I flew into the side of the mountain I feel a sharp pain & myself falling then I pass out. When I wake up I hear whispering Adrian's eyes are the first things I see then I see the smile widen on his face & he smirks & says.

" nice flying Nessie just next time avoid the mountain "

I glare at him and he chuckles. Soon I head down for dinner Adrian at my side & as I walk into the dinning room Nix runs up to me & jumps into my arms I catch him & laugh I look around at the other and a smile spreads across my face. This is my life now, & I couldn't be happier.

I hope you liked it!

- E