When Worlds Meet - If I Met SWLTM

Chapter 13 - I Think Im Good Enough

Cyrus POV

I went outside to try and find Blu. I spotted her sitting under a tree. She was humming another song.

I walked up to her to hear what she's murmuring. Blu was singing. It sounded as if she was saying "I wish I was good enough."

I continued listening to her. She sounded a bit depressed. But I didn't want to disturb her. So I payed attention to the lyrics of the song:

I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.

Stop complaining, shut your mouth.
Push aside all of you doubts
Because they're tearing you apart.

I see Blu's face darken. I heard her softly crying but she continued singing.

Take your time, it'll be ok.
Even if you're not that great
You've got the fire in your heart.

Blu had a creepy smile on her face. She looked angry yet insane.

So just DO IT.
To hell with it, SCREW IT.
Im so tired of you making excuses!

DO IT.
If you want to, then PROVE IT.
Halting progress on yourself is just...
Stupid

But...

I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.

Blu started moving her head in accordance to the beat of the song. She then started growling to herself.

Get up on your feet, time's running out.
Your plan to stall won't save you know.
You've wasted nights just hating on yourself.
And drilling in those silly doubts.

Blu started crying even more.

Everytime you try to make a change.
Your hopes and dreams get rearranged.
You're far too gone, just throw it all away.
There are no replays.

Blu looked down at her hands. She covered her face like how SCP-096 would have done but still continued singing.

That little voice in your head's taking over.

Blu paused and gripped her hood tightly.

Might wanna head on upstairs just to choke her.

I felt like I should help her. But then, she kind of deserved it.

I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.
I wish I was good enough.

Blu's face went to normal but she still looked slightly insane.

Why would I continue being me?
When better people are all I see?
There's nothing changed, doesn't matter if Im here.
This time I might just disappear.

Now its time for you to play a part.
Your shoddy show's about to start.
So put on your mask and get up on your way.
They love you anyway.

I wish I was good enough.

Blu ended the song by looking into the sky. It was slightly red due to the fact it was almost night.

I sighed as I felt bad for Blu. Its like she was going through a depression and Im not even helping her. I feel a bit guilty. But then my thoughts were interrupted.

"Cyrus, I know you're standing there." Blu called out to me. I snapped out and look at her.

Blu wiped her face. "If you really do feel bad, why not at least TRY to help me?" She glared at me with her sad white eyes.

I look away in shame. "Blu, look. I care for you, ok? But I really don't know how to deal with someone who's depressed." I told her.

There was a long silence. Then I heard snickering coming from Blu. It then changed to hard laughter.

"Depressed? You think Im depressed?" Blu laughed. I look at her confused. "Aren't you?" I asked.

After Blu recovered, she shook her head. "Im not depressed. Have ya ever heard of mood swings?" She said.

"But your song was so sad-" Blu interrupted me. "When Im happy, I sing a happy song. When Im sad, I sing a sad song." She explained.

I nodded. "So you're sad right now?" I questioned. Blu paused and looked away. "A bit." She answered.

I felt weird right now. A familiar feeling was kicking in. I decided to sit beside Blu under the tree.

"You mind telling me?" I asked her. Blu looked at me. "I miss Crusher and Kookie." She replied. Blu looked at the sky.

"I miss my friends like Moonbeam and Willow." "Willow?" I asked. "She's an Axolotl." Blu said. Oh, so thats why.

"Ohh, so thats why you don't like me killing Axolotls in Minecraft. You have one named Willow." I told Blu.

Blu seemed confused at first but nodded. "Ehh, yeah. Thats why." She smiled.

We sat beside each other until the sunset ended. I heard Blu yawn as she leaned against my shoulder. Heck, she's cute.

I blushed as I tried to resist the urge to pull off her hood. I then felt Blu start to sleep. Then I thought of something.

"Hey, Blu. I just want to say something." I said. Blu yawned. "What?" She asked. I sighed.

"Im sorry for a while ago. You know, screaming at you." I apologized to Blu. She nodded slowly. "Its fine. No harm done." She said quietly.

Then, she stood up. "Its dark. We should go inside already." Blu told me as I got up too. "Yeah you're right." I said.

Blu looked at me. "Why you blushing?" She blurted. S***. I forgot about how I was still blushing. "Ehhhh." I was speechless.

"Heh, maybe I know why." Blu smiled as she walked close to me. We held hands as we smile at each other.

Blu and I leaned in to kiss. I don't know why Im doing this but guess like I am now.

But then, we heard a click. We immediately pull away and look at the source of the sound: Cydnee.

She was holding up her phone and Wesley was beside her with a shocked face.

"EEEEEE! I knew it!" Cydnee shrieked as she did something on her phone. "Better post the video now."

I look at Blu with shock and she looked at me the same way. Then we charge at Cydnee. "DON'T YOU DARE SEND THAT VIDEO!!!" I shouted.

But it was too late. Cydnee pressed send and she started laughing. Blu looked like she wanted to commit murder.

"CYDNEE!" We both yell at the cheerleader. Wesley just watched. "So you're just going to forget Im here?" He asked quietly but no one heard.

All that was heard was me and Blu shouting at Cydnee.