bruised and scarred

four.

"alyxandria? care to talk with me?"

this is the first time

the first time that someone asks me to talk with him/her

and with that i said yes

"can you still remember nathan?"

i know somebody asked her 

somebody asked her to ask me about nathan

"yes i can still remember nathan. 

he's my boyfriend.

'til the day he died."

my tears are trying to get

their shit together

up in my eyes

"sorry to hear that,

but do you still have contact 

with his parents?"

"no

sorry i need to go"

"do you still

love him? 

or miss him?"

i pretend that i didn't hear her question

but yes i did

and my answer to that

question is yes.

and with that

i can feel my soul giving up

because of the pain

my soul's having