bruised and scarred

seven.

"try to be strong.
dont tell yourself to give up
and dont give up.
there's hope."
jara says.

jara is a good friend of mine
she's a really good listener
and she give nice advices.

sometimes i can tell that
she's the girl version of
nathan.

they're almost the same,
well because they are
siblings.

i like the fact that
im learning to be happy.

im learning to be happy
by myself.

"i'll promise that
i'll never give up.
but if nathan calls me
i'll go with him."

"he's still here dont worry.
i can tell that my brother's still here.
he's looking out for you."

but i still wish that my life's
just like my life before
everything's fucked up.

>>
flashback
<<

"happy 2nd anniversary princess"
nathan greeted me with a perfect smile
on his face

its our 2nd year being together
being happy with each other
being contented.

"i love you"

"but i love you so much princess"

>>
end of flashback
<<

i wish i can still hear
those.

his i love you's

him calling me princess

i just wish...
and it will never happen i know
because he's gone
and never coming back.
only the memories come back
but not him.