Random Mind's Thoughts

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Life is so unpredictable, *sigh* I know you all have heard this line like thousand times. Me too. But we humans what can I say? we are well humans. There is no word that can
describe our stupidity level because we never learn. I know I'm attacking many people right now *sigh* but first I'm attacking myself. We all give big speech how we should do that, how we shouldn't do that, what we should or shouldn't do, what's right or what's wrong and blah blah blah.... . And I'm talking from personal experience, do we do what we say, don't get me wrong I'm not pointing a finger at you. I'm just stating the facts.

From what I've observed and learnt I don't know about heart, that's another level  where I really don't wanna go right now but human mind is one of the most complicated thing. I always get a headache even when I think about it. And to say I want to study psychology *chuckle*.

I mean it happens to most of us you know "late night thinking". Horrific I know. It always scares the shit out of me. I mean a minute ago I'm reading, listening or watching something interesting and interesting means distracting to those who can understand what I'm saying. And then the next minute that horrific thing happens. And the hurricane it cause in our mind? "Bravo" will be the compliment I'll give to it.

And at that moment the best thing that could happen to us is sleep. I love sleep no offense to those who can't sleep. But it really is an escape sometimes for some of us ofc. It really helps. It sometimes felt like heaven especially when you start studying. The dizziness I feel when I study. And at that moment we feel like we can get the best sleep of our life.

Well we are getting off the subject here. I was talking about life being unpredictable and us being stupid. And you're all must be thinking talk about yourself not us *laugh*. I'm stupid I know. Self awareness is very important.

Well let me get started then, a few days ago I was all talking about self love and all that kind of shit in twitter, long story short I was just trying be a wise person, which ofc I'm not "ha ha ha" . You all must be thinking I'm crazy. But aren't we all? According to me we have many faces and we only try to show that face which we want people to see. It can be good side, sweet side, cute side, selfish side, bad side, dark side, cold side, emotional side, etc. (etcetera is my favorite word, we can use it anywhere if we have too many options to say or we forgot some options.)  Gosh they're so many faces , I'm forgetting the count here.

Do you know "brutal" is currently my favourite song. Love you Olivia. That song attacked me. Is there someone who can relate? If yes then I'll just say one thing love I understand.

If someone have told me a few days ago I'll be writing something here this lengthy, I would have laughed on their face. I mean come on I can't even write anything properly in my exams and here I'm writing my thoughts my dangerous thoughts, "horrific" again. I mean I have a lot of ideas,  I can give you a hundred of ideas, but I can't express my ideas in words. Writing also takes creativeness and I don't know, I'm trying but my vocabulary isn't very good. It takes a lot to put your ideas into action. And I can assure you my ideas are marvellous. That I'm very sure of.

This is my first time writing something. I don't know what I'm writing. I don't think it's a story because as I said I'm not ready to write a story yet. But one day I'll definitely try. Whatever I'm writing is probably my thoughts, otherwise idk what I should call it.

So where was I? Yeah Life, unpredictable, humans, stupid. So you know one of our biggest enemy is society and our family (there number will also come, I'll attack each one of them muahahahah:>) also comes in it but no, no no no no no..... our biggest enemy that is bigger than our ego, (yes this ego is also a very nasty thing. We'll talk about it later though)  is *cue for the drumroll* ourselves.

What's the word that I used to describe ourselves? Ahhhhh  humans. So we are our biggest enemy. Accept it or not but it's true. It's one of the most honest fact. Before fighting with anyone else, we have to fight ourselves, our thoughts, our heart, our mind. Too complicated. I always have a hate for complicated things especially that monstrous subject yk 'maths' duh, but one of the most complicated thing is in ourselves, who can we blame then if not ourselves.

In the end I'll just say one thing mind sucks.

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Please read it it's my first author's note🙏

Well I'm stopping right here. This is my first time writing something. I hope you like it. If something offends you. I'm really sorry for that. They're just my thoughts. I have been thinking of writing something for a few days. I thought I could never write something. But reading whatever shit I write, I'm impressed from myself. Even though it's a little bit small but I'll take it. As they say Something is better than nothing;).

And please vote for it if you like it.
And also I want to say that I'm open to some help if someone want to suggest me what I should do to make it better and help me improve. I'll appreciate that:)

Also haters can go to hell👿 and lovers can stay in this heaven.😂😂

Who likes novels in which the
female leads holds a lot of secrets and are deadly?😏

See you in the next chapter🤗

Arrivederci

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