शिद्दत

Prologue

"Ma'am, one last question." I nod to the reporter and she starts with her question. " Have you ever felt this kind of love? I mean aisa shiddat wala pyaar jaha---- and I got cold feet. Nothing I can hear or listen to. My mind goes blank. Like a black curtain falls in front of my eyes. My blood pressure goes down.

Someone is shaking me but I can't feel the touch. Blanky I looked at the person. My mind is trying to register the person. He looked tensed and worried. He turned to the mic and speak. A faint sound hits my ears but I couldn't get what it is. He holds my hand and together we walked out. 

The loud sound of automobiles booms in my ears and I immediately closed my ears. I try to regain my consciousness. Cold breeze passes through me and I slowly opened my eyes. I looked at the surrounding. I m out of my conference. I looked at the person beside me. He looked worried and tense. He turned to me and hold my face in his hands. He looked into my eyes. " You okay "? I nod and relief washed over his face. "Thank God. I m sorry I wasn't aware that this was going to happen. You okay na ?" I assured him with my eyes and nod my head. He left my face and hand me the water bottle. "Drink" he ordered and I slowly sipped it. As soon as the cold water went inside me. My heartbeat starts getting normal.  I start taking breathe normally. "Thanks" I returned the bottle to him. " Tumne dara diya that muje. Pata hai. " he spoke and I faintly smiled. " I m sorry" only these words get out of my mouth. " It's ok. Sham ko flight hai let's go". He opened the door and I slide inside without any more attention.

I know it was my panic attack and for the last two and half years, I m suffering from this. I don't want to go that lane again. It's like I went into a denial state. But today from what I was running the question was in front of me.  And there is no answer to it because he left without an answer.