My life is a Mistake

Chapter 13

Draupadi's pov, 

        Why?  Why?  What the great sin I did that I am bearing these much of suffering in my life,  when I born my father,  brother and sister treat me and pampered me as a baby,  like an angel,  soon within a time of one year he arranged my swayamvaram,  then he himself said to choose Aryaputr arjun,  govind also said the same thing,  then I have to marry the five sons of kunti,  I never wished bad for anyone then why me? 

I always proud for my husbands,  but today when that dussasan drag me to the sabha,  my five husbands were sitting like a statue,  even aryaputr bheem,  don't do anything,  aryaputr arjun take a oath,  that he will cut the head of the person who disrespects me,  but,  leave it he never follows any of his oath,  among the five I loved and trusted arjun the most and he is the one who hurted me most. 

In case ang raj didn't arrived at the time means what will happen,  I have a trust that my govind will save me,  but what about my dignity,  hey narayan!  , I will never forgive anyone for this humilation,  neither kauravas nor pandavas,  and the elders of hastinapur,  they all want to answer this,  I am fire,  they have to burn on this fire. 

What sacrifice I didn't do for my five husbands,  I lost my self respect Infront of whole aryavarth when I said yes to marry them,  after one year,  I jump into fire to pure me,  I have done all work as a dutiful wife and samragini, but what they give me back,  pain,  humiliation,  betrayal everything but love,  no.

Angraj karna is son of rajmata kunti,  he is suryaputra,  then also how much hardships he faced in his life,  still now he is struggling to prove everyone that he is great warrior,  even they also know that but their ego will never going to accept that,  u want to meet govind.  With that thought she break down and she slept in crying itself.

When vrushali back with a food she tried to open the door but can't,  she ask some soldiers help then also can't, so she went to her husband's chamber, 

    Aarya!  Draupadi...,  what you have done with you?  Vrushali shocked by seeing the chamber condition,  whole chamber is mess,  he breaks every little big things in the chamber, what more shocked is karna's condition,  he is sobbing like a child,  seeing his condition she remembers one time radha maa says how he is when she see karna first time, 

    Do you know vrushali? How Vasu Cried in the stream of ganga,  when I see him first,  his cry make my heartbeat fast,  he is that helpless baby drowning in ganga,  when I lift him in my hand,  naturally I get a mother feelings,  my milk started to flow,  I don't know how a woman can that cruel to left a baby like him to die 

He looks like the same baby,  who is so helpless drowning in his own misery,  she went near to him and sit beside him. 

Aarya!  Please say what happened in hastinapur? 

Karna looks at her for a moment and fell into her lap,  he holds her by her waist,  he hold her tight as much as possible,  vrushali did feel little pain but after  a long time he is sharing his sorrows to her. 

I have lost vrushali,  lost everything , I don't know,  why whenever I wished something from my bottom of the heart that never happens,  I wished to earn respect through my skills but no one is respecting me,  still they insult me by my birth,  I always want to see my parents proud about me,  they have but still whenever someone insult me,  they are the one who hurt more than me,  that why I get soo much anger,  and after I get to know the truth I wished one thing vrushali only one thing, do you know what that? 

  You want to make both the sides of brothers as one family and to live happily with them,  said vrushali.

Karna gets up from her lap and looked at her eyes and chuckled and said,    No,  vrushali,  I never wished to be with them, yes as a brother I want to protect them,  guide them,  and I will do that till my last breath,  but live with them is a different topic,  it's complicated our life more,  I just want them to accept each other,  have to live in a single roof,  without hating each other,  then me,  you our kids will leave this Hastinapur,  go south side of the country,  beyond vidharva,  make a small Hut and live a happy,  simple life, thats it,  I wished to live a simple normal life,  but how it will happen when I have 105 bunch of idiots as a brother,  how it will happen? With them living itself a great thing,