Destiny

8

I woke up all fresh and happy after my conversation with Shawn last night . We are in a different position then we were last night. He's face is buried in my chest and his one leg over my legs. He looks so peaceful I can just stay here whole day and see him sleeping.
I gently removed myself from under him trying my best not to wake him up.
I moved down to the kitchen to prepare the breakfast.
" Good morning " I said as I saw Shawn walking down the stairs.
He ignored me and took seat on the couch in the living room.
" Breakfast " I smiled and placed the plate in front of him.
He took a bite from the sandwich and left the sandwich uneaten. He ignored me and walked back to the room lost in his phone.
" Shawn I can make anything else if you don't like the sandwich " I ask entering the room.
" You don't have to be soo good I know what you really are " his words hit me harder than anything. I know he didn't remember anything from last night so it was better for me to shut up and do my own work.

" Hey babe wanna hang out " he asked on his call and I turned around to him.
" Who are you speaking to " I questioned.
" My girlfriend, you have any problem" he spoke and started to speak again on his call.
" I'm your wife standing right here and you're talking to a woman asking her to hang out with you " i said with a raised voice and he gave me a death glare.
" I'll call you back later " he said on call and stood up from his seat.
" Keep your voice low " he said with anger in his eyes and I rolled my eyes at him.
" Don't roll your eyes at me I'm controlling myself I don't want to burst on you " he said and I chuckled slowly.
" you're an asshole " I said and moved away to continue what I was doing.
" What did you say ?" Shawn shouted.
" I SAID YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE " I yelled again and he slapped my face.
" Shawn " I screamed falling onto the floor. He marked his fingers and a cut on my left cheek.
" Shit " he shouted slamming his hand on the table making me jump and then he left the room.
I kept sitting on the floor crying for what my life has become. I don't have anyone and anything to do in life now.
Shawn gently opened the door with a first aid box in his hand and sat on the floor with me.
" I'm sorry Sofia I know what I did was wrong , I shouldn't have hit you -
" You know Stephen beats my mom I'm usual to this sight but I never thought it'll happen to me someday "
" I'm sorry soff I never wanted to hurt you "
" I know, but this slap made me realize what I'm for you I'm just a girl who's here to serve you and you were right, Stephen just sold me to you "
" Sofia I don't know what I was doing I was controling myself but -
" Stephen told me before our wedding that I'll get a life like my mom and I guess you did what he said , I just wanted to keep you happy Shawn I'm willing to give you my everything you just have to ask"
" I love you soff , I want your love and I don't want to believe what Stephen told me " he said
" Then don't believe him Shawn , believe me cuz he's lying . I never did anything with anyone, those are old photos of me and my first and the last boyfriend kissing each other. It was my first kiss I wanted to keep it with me always that's why I clicked those pics. I thought I'm in love but that wasn't love that was a stupid teenager who just desperately wanted to make a boyfriend cuz her friends were having boyfriends too " I said cupping his face.
" But Stephen told me that you're still talking to your ex and you've a relationship with him "
" No Shawn, trust me, he's lying he just wants to be good in your eyes he just wants profit , I'm not talking to anyone I swear"
" But you never showed interest in me I thought you don't love me "
" Shawn I love you, I love you more than anything . I know I'm not that wife whose completing your needs or giving you pleasure but it's just because I was scared. I was scared of your anger that you'll hurt me if I tried to do anything , I wanted us to be good with eachother and understand eachother before doing anything." I said
" I'll never hurt you Sofia trust me I'll never . I'll kill myself if I did this again " he said cupping my face and kissed me slowly.
He observed the mark on my cheek and applied some cream on it.
" Now we both have marks on our face " I said and he smiled weakly.
He rubbed his thumb gently on the red marks of his fingers on my cheek.
" It'll go away " I said and he's eyes started to become teary.
" I never wanted to do this to you" he spoke
" I know Shawn , it's okay I know you were angry I should have stopped arguing with you but things like this happens and it's fine " I said hugging him.
" I'm sorry " he whispered into my ears and I gave him a little peck on the top of his nose.
" Come on I'm hungry let's make something to eat " I said as he helped me stand.
" I'll help you " he smiled and picked me up bridal style and took me to the kitchen.