december, the end ✓

fourteen

A note was placed beneath the table, i took to read it before i finally go. There's nothing more amazing than his handwriting written in cursive, I didn't expect what letter it was.

The context were moving, as if it was a magic diary from a children's stories. But now, i was seeing it real, I can't just touch it.

It was glowing, I can't clearly read.

I remember i still have to go, maybe I'll read this by later. when he's gone for sure.

I pause on my spot as I remember if i took my step down on this ladder, this is the final. and I'll never going to take it back here again. I didn't get enough time to think, everything happens was clear yet I can't accept it.

though, if i keep my mind open.

I'll be with him, someday again.

A smile plastered my lips, if he said I'm going to continue healing. and then i will, for him—

for myself.

I took the risk, i step down on the ladder as few steps more and i stepped on the sand already. It was cold, almost snowing. Probably December in another dimension.

How could i be knowing that it was December already? On Christmas time?

santa's gift for me is very unacceptable.

"Drew!" I called, when i saw him throwing rocks on the ocean. The sun successfully went down. My bare skin handled most of the cold wind passing through me.

"I was looking for you, everywhere."

"I never thought you wouldn't hesitate to come down here, Tan. I envy you," he says, walking towards where i was standing.

The dark sky slowly hovered over us and I saw how his eyes mirrored the stars. We just stare each other for a moment, that we didn't even realise that our minds read the same words.

words are unable to be explained, love that supposed to be bloomed will be remain.

untitled.

"Have you seen the note?"

"not yet, I'll read it soon."

"when you're gone, because I don't want you to look at me in pity as i cry." I replied, he chuckles as if i was joking. But I'm not. My eyes were tearing up behind, but I didn't want to make it fall.

"Really, Tan? I've seen you crying almost..hundreds of times," he laughed, immediately going back to a serious— yet gloomy look.

"You did, but it was from our past. and i no longer remember any of it."

"Except for our memories, I thanked you for the days you help me." I muttered, forcing a flat smile.

"Seriously, Drew. I can't afford to lose you, I'll never be enough if you're gone."

I started, i took the chance because.. I'll never going to speak like this again. Why would i even said those? My tears started falling—non stop.

"I'm sure you'll find a happiness, Tan. I know you know,"

He walk again, close to my neck. He connected our foreheads. My eyes closed as he hugged me tight as if he no longer want to let go. Same as i did.

I know..

Our heart still calls for each other. But what can we do? Does the destiny even approve to it?

"Our memories..You can still have them, in your heart, mind, soul and Every piece of you is perfect to me, bub."

"Not because i love you, but because you are you."

"If only i can say i love you quite a millions of times, I will. However, Tan. It's not our time."

"that crescent moon will always remind how you completed my life, even after death."

11:11

last wish.

farewell.

"Tan my brightest moon. Memories can be forgotten, but it was always remembered."

"Till we met again,"