BLACK VEIL BRIDES CONCERT TODAY! SO FUCKING EXCITED
1/26/13
-Ronnie's POV-
I sighed and grabbed my phone. 5 missed texts from Kat and 3 missed calls from Ally. How I hate Ally. But she is going to have my child. And I've never wanted to be one of those guys that just walks out on their kids. Maybe I could try to be with Ally? No. She raped me. And I love Kat. Maybe I should just go check in with Ally. We do have today off anyway, and we're just a few miles away.
I left the bus and drove over to Kat's old house. Ally opened the door and I could see her baby bump.
"Ronnie," She said as her lips curled into a smile, "What are you doing here?"
"Well..." I started. What am I doing here? "You are carrying my baby... so I figured I'd check in. Do you know if it's a boy or a girl?"
"It's a boy."
"Did you think of a name?" I've always wanted a son.... But with Kat...
"His name is going to be Christopher Anthony." She said proudly
"Do you need any money for the baby or anything?"
"No Ronnie. What I need is you. I love you. And he needs his father. Do you know what it would be like for him to grow up without his dad? When he's older, he's going to be upset and blame it on the 'Rock star type.' You don't want to do this to OUR son do you?"
I don't know what to do. I feel awful. I want to be there for the baby, I really do, but I just can't stand Ally. And what will Kat think? Would Kat even care? She's probably moved on to Max already. Maybe I should move on too, for little Christopher.
"Fine. Maybe we could try to be together. But I still need to finish Warped."
"OH RONNIE!" She squealed as she jumped into me and kissed me.
I kissed back but all I could feel was pure disgust. I hate Ally. I want Kat back.
"I have to get back to the bus now. I'll see you later."
"CALL ME!" She shouted as I left.
When I got back, I was immediately hounded by questions.
"Where were you?" Derek asked as soon as I walked in.
"Just out." I replied trying to get away.
I felt someone push me back, making it so I couldn't leave. I looked and saw Ron blocking my way.
"Ronnie tell us." He said sternly.
I sighed. "I was visiting Ally. We're kinda together now. But don't tell Kat."
I then heard quiet sobs coming from the doorway. I slowly turned my head to see Kat crying, holding a cup of water. She dropped the cup, letting it smash into a million pieces, and ran out.
"Shit." I mumbled under my breath.
I then felt a stinging pain in my right cheek as I realized someone punched me. I looked up to see Jacky standing right in front of me, pure hatred in his eyes. Now, if you don't know Jacky, he's so shy, and he's the nicest thing ever. This made it even more of a surprise when he punched me.
"How could you do that to Kat?" He hissed at me. "Ally raped you! You know Kat hates Ally! And Kat has been so depressed ever since YOU left her. Or are you too blind to see that? She cries every night, wishing you'd just at least let her explain. You're a real douchebag. She loved you so much and this is how you treat her? You wanna know what Ronnie? Do you want to know? I found four bottles of aspirin under her bed. She was going to overdose for you! Just because she hates herself now because she thinks you do! She feels so awful to the point of trying to kill herself, and you can't even let her explain? Fuck you Ronnie! You really are the lowest scum of a person." He spat at me.
"S-she tried to k-k-kill herself?" I whispered.
He nodded his head and was going to punch me again if Ryan and Ron didn't hold him back. I sunk down onto the ground and just sat there. Did I really do this? I'm so awful.
Maybe I should try to talk to Kat. But what would I even say? I can't get back together with her because of Ally. 'Oh hey. I'm taken but we can be good friends'? Whatever, maybe I should just start with apologizing.
I stood up, pushed past the guys, and walked into the bunk room.
I knocked on the side of Kat's bunk.
"Kat? Can I talk to you please?"
She just sniffed and then opened the curtain.
"Let's do this somewhere more private." I said looking back at all of the guys staring at me. I guided Kat by her hand and brought her into my room. I sat on my bed and patted the spot next to me. She sat down and looked at the ground.
Even when she's upset she's still so perfect.
"Kat I'm so sorry about being with Ally now. I hate her. I really do. I only want you. But she's carrying my baby and I need to be there for my child. I'm so sorry this all happened."
She just nodded and didnt even look up. I've hurt her so much and I cant stand it.
"Kathryn Amelia Jacobs," I said sternly, "Look at me."
She just continued to stare at the ground.
I kneeled down on the floor right in front of her and lifted her chin so she was looking into my eyes.
"Look, I know I suck. I know that. But I really do love you. And no matter what you ever do I'd still love you. Love can make people stupid sometimes. But that's okay. Because I KNOW I love you. I just hope that you'll be able to find someone whos better and makes you happier. That's what I want for you. If you can't be happy with me, I want you to go with someone else. If Max makes you happy, I want you to be with him. You deserve the best person in the world. Someone who will love you unconditionally and wont make stupid mistakes like me."
"Just leave me alone Ronnie. If you loved me, you would've let me explain. Not just go to someone I hate. Fuck you." She said.
She then pushed me, got up, and stormed out of the room.
I sat there on the floor feeling even more broken than I did before.
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Woah. I was going to do something else with that ending, but then I started thinking about stuff and my emotions got the best of me. Well okay.
