pathway to dreamies II nct dream

chapter 9 : the twins

shuddering breaths was filling up the whole room. the cold sweats dripped non stop.

" *breathes* j-j-jisul.... jisul?! JISUL?! " his panicked voice trembled as he got off the bed and exited the room, yelling jisul's name with tears in his eyes that can hardly stay still.

" *yawns* what a rough day... " jisul walked slowly with her eyes smaller than usual. she stopped right in front of the room door. she turned around before entering. her eyes widened at the sight of the bed empty. she flinched at the sound of jisung's voice. she turned around and ran outside trying to find him.

" JISUL!! JISUL!..... JISUL!!!!! " jisung kept looking around until his eyes met her's. without saying anything, he ran towards her and hugged her tightly before he finally broke down. his sobs were loud. tears leaving his eyes non stop. " are you okay? why are you crying? " jisul asked, shocked by his movements. he couldn't form a single word between his sobs.

jisul found it weird. it's been a long time since they hugged. maybe... 4 years ago? they didn't hug after the incident. no regular talks. no laughing. no skinships. no nothing.

many might find it hard to believe, but during the incident, the amount of glass shattered entered into jisul's eyes as she tries to protect him. she turned blind after that, and jisung blamed himself for it. about a few months later, their parents found someone that creates eye balls for a really high price. and these eyes aren't normal. these eyes are robotic, they can see in the dark, communicate with people through the eyes and even enhance peoples movements. the surgery took quite awhile. though jisul didn't want it, her parents forced her too. it's for her own good.

believe it or not, you might think jisul had it the worst. but...... jisung did. his injuries wasn't too bad. but his mental state worsen. he developed a mental disorder, anxiety, after that incident. he got sent to therapy daily, has people watching over him 24/7. non of the therapy worked.... he then was homeschooled while his sister, jisul, went to public school. he had to focus more on his mental state then his grades, since it does affect him more. until present day, he still blamed himself over what happened to jisul. his anxiety attacks normally happens whenever there's loud noises, crowds. he hates these sounds so much.

jisung anxiety attacks has its own level.

level 1 : sudden pause, unable to think.

level 2 : difficulty breathing, hands shaking.

and the worse of all...
level 3 : loosing himself, grief, denying.

level three attack happened only one time. it still traumatised him. he lost himself and attacked jisul 3 years ago.

< flashback 3 years ago >

" stop.... stop.... " jisung tried to stop jisul who went on rampage after hearing what he just said to her. he wanted to quit therapy to help himself, but she denied it. " you have to go for therapy! your mental state is getting worse and worse every time you have an attack!! you can't just shut the world out because of your attacks park jisung! " jisul shouted as she moved closer towards jisung. " s-s-stop..... " jisung moved backwards as she got closer. " did you ever think about mom and dad?! your choice matters!! don't be such a kid and grow u- " jisung got cut off. she was pushed against the wall with a sharp object pointing towards her neck. " i said stop. " jisung said before lifting his hands. his eyes were filled with anger as he tightened his grip. " wait jisung-....... " she managed to speak as she tries to push jisung away.

after a few seconds, the guards came in, pulling jisung away. " get off me!! don't you dare grab me!! " jisung shouted. his screams terrifies her. before shutting his screams, jisul looked at him. ' i'm sorry jisung '

< end of flashback >

the both of them sat down at the bench, jisung still interlocking his hands towards her, not wanting to let go. " what happened? why are you crying? " jisul asked. " i'm sorry..... " jisung answered with head stooped low. " i need to understand why you're crying. what happened? " jisul asked again, in a more colder tone. " t-the incident. it- ... it... it r-replayed....... and your body.... was t-there.... " he tried not to cry as he tightened his grip. before his tears escape, he felt his back being held. " that must've been scary. you have to forget about the past. focus on the present and what the future gives. forget about that. that way, you will get better. " she plastered a smile. but this time... this smile was sincere.

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everyone gathered right in front of the station to wait for the bus. " ah there you. how is he? " mina asked after seeing the twins. " he's still having his fever but he is getting better " jisul answered as she glanced towards jisung who still refused to let go of her hand. she moved his hand away from her's and place it at the back of her shirt. " that's great. did something happened? you normally don't answer that type of questions about jisung. " mina looked side to side at the twins. the bus soon arrived and rain started pouring heavily. they all boarded the bus. " uh... sorry can i sit with him on the way back? he's having a fever " jisul asked the second-years and gotten their replies before sitting down and shoving jisung towards the window seat.

" get some sleep. you didn't sleep after having that dream. and it was at 5 am ... " jisul added as she passed the pills. " no thanks...... " jisung answered as he plugged in his earpiece( they're given their phones back ). jisul tried to remove her hands from his but he just wouldn't budge. ' he's scared. ' but she knows that he will fell asleep. she gave him a different pill. a pill for his anxiety and sleep. after about 30 minutes his eyes got heavier, and soon fell asleep. head on his sisters shoulder.

" pst! pst!! jisul!! mind switching seats with me?? i wanna sit next to him! " do-ha whispered as she leaned. " he's sick do-ha, get a rest. " jisul answered as she push do-ha head away.

•••••• at home ••••••

" i heard jisung caught a cold? is he alright??? " asked Mrs park as she scanned jisung whose eye lids were going down slowly. " i didn't carry antibiotics, but i gave him the sleeping pill on the way back. he created a havoc at 5 am screaming my name. " "oh jisul... isn't it his attack? what level was it? " jisul answered with her fingers showing one. jisung wasn't listening to the conversation at all, his mind was at another place. mrs park then hold his shoulders and brought him towards his room.