Destiny

Chapter Four

She'd asked me something I personally didn't want to bring up. I know how Haven would react and I didn't want her to hate me. My whole life has been full of hate and now that I have Haven I've felt better. If I brought up anything of my past I know I would regret it. "Who's Vanessa? Who are you? I have so many questions Carma just answer them please!" Haven asked again. 

I sighed... "Back in Nalops where I came from got destroyed over a hundreds of years ago. I started to take my anger out on the world killing everything and everyone I met. One day I just lost myself I was crazy feeding on the pain of people's screams and struggles. Vanessa found one day and told me that everything would be right again if I joined her on a journey to destroy all the planets in the universe so that's what we played out doing. She is such a wonderful spectacular enjoyment for society." I stopped to catch my breath almost bouncing in joy for Vanessa.  

Haven looked at me like I was mad. "She taught me everything there is to know about love, pain, destruction! She made me the happiest person alive. I killed the whole population of Nalops for her and she was happy. Everything was going perfect until I met you and then Vanessa gets all angry." I shuddered and glared at Haven. 

Haven ruined me and Vanessa. I didn't finish my story only looked at Haven with disgust before laying back down on the meadow. "I'm sorry you met me then!" Haven cried before hopping up. 

What did I just say? Why am I still obsessing over Vanessa? I grabbed Haven and pulled her back down landing her gently in my lap. "I'm sorry that I didn't meet you sooner. Why didn't you live back on Nalops? Then maybe none of this wouldn't of happened" I kissed Haven's forehead before tucking her head under my chin.  

I still didn't understand the feelings I had for such a young child but now I don't know what I would do without her. "Vanessa is a cruel woman who only cares for herself and nothing else around her. I don't know why I got absorbed into such bull shit in the first place." I muttered ashamed. "You were in agony..." I heard Haven whisper. 

For such a young girl she understood how I felt. It was like she was part of me now even though we only met a day ago, when I selfishly intruded into her life. "I understand Carma you don't have to hide from me like anyone else you've hid from in the past. I won't judge you on the past even if you have killed people. You were sick then but now... You'll get better" Haven closed her eyes and pressed her lips up against the bridge of my nose. "I don't want to hide anymore..." I admitted out loud in a very dull voice. 

I didn't want to have to hide from the one I now loved there was no point of no showing myself to the world. If they don't accept me for who I am they might as well not accept me at all. We were meant to be but had just life times apart from each other and would never reach.

BANG!!!!!  

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