Trust Issues (Under editing)

Bad Memories

AMINA'S POV

"It all started when I was nine years old...."

Flashback

I was sitting in the kitchen coloring in a Dora coloring book while my dad was making me some lunch. My mom walked in the kitchen mad, but I didn't know why. My mom whispered something to my dad, and he gave me my food and they both walked out the kitchen.

Five minutes later I heard them arguing, at first I didn't know what for until I heard my mom say my name and I knew then they were arguing about me.

"Amoni, please not now our daughter is here" my dad said.

"I dont give a fuck, she gets all your attention and love, while I get pushed around" she yelled back.

" Are you seriously jealous of a child, grow the fuck up" he yelled at her.

"I'm not jealous, all I'm saying is that its not fair to me, your my man, your suppose to show attention to me too." She yelled back.

"She is a child, somebody needs to look out for her since you won't I will, no move " he said walking back into the kitchen.

Me and dad colored and played around for the rest of the day having fun, until it was night time. He tucked me in and told me one of my bed time stories', that night it was Cinderella.

After he got done reading, I ended up falling asleep. Hours later I was awaken by my mom she put me in some clothes and shoes and carried me downstairs to the car.

"Mommy where are we going? I kept asking her.

"Oh no where sweetie I have a special place for you to go" she respond with a smirk.

Hours later, we were in a different state but I didn't know which one. She parked the car and got me out and kneeled in front of me.

"I can't believe its this easy, I finally getting rid of you for good, now I can have daddy all to my self, you be good and do everything that man ask you to do ok" she said with a smile. I didn't reply back I just started to cry.

I knew then I was about to be abandoned in the middle of nowhere. She rolled her eyes and headed back to her car.

"Mommy I'm sorry I will be good I promise" I cried out to her, she just shook her head and drove off anyways.

"Come on" I heard a deep voice say behind me. I just did as I was told as my mom instructed me to do.

I was taking to this warehouse thing, and locked inside of a basement of some sort. I only ate and had water when they allowed me to eat. I only had baths when they wanted me too.

As a few months passed I kept thinking to myself maybe my mom would come back for me or my dad would find me.

Another month had passed and it was my 10th birthday, the mean man that held me here came into the room. I hurriedly moved into a corner of the room as I heard multiple foot steps coming towards me.

"Hey sweet heart, happy 10th birthday" the man said to me.

"Why am I here?" I managed to ask.

"You mother gave you to me, she told me to do whatever I want with you and I have the perfect idea for you" he said stepping closer.

"Please dont hurt me" I whispered.

"Oh no I'm not gone hurt you sweetheart" he said with a smirk. I didn't trust him at all, the look on his face told me he had something up his sleeves.

"Meet my sons" he said as I looked around the room at all his sons that looked around the same age expected one that looked around my age. He had fear in his eyes. "They are here to give you, your birthday present"

"I dont want it" I spoke up.

"Too bad you don't have a choice" and after that they took turns raping me except the youngest one.

"That night I cried myself to sleep but that was just the first of many. After the rape it continued to happened, and that's one of the huge reasons why I didn't want to have sex with any guy that wanted to talk to me.

After a while the months turned into years, I was now 15, for 5 years I've been gone and not once did my family come to get me. I was laying down on the blanket they gave me. Looking at the ceiling just thinking. I didn't have to live like this I had a choice.

One night while all the guards was focused on the basketball game, I snuck past them, and wondered the halls until I found a room full of money, I grabbed a bag full and made my way to the front door. Before I left I opened the oven and let the gas come out then lit a match.

I was wondering the streets for hours, trying to figure out where I was , i was feeling dizzy and in a lot of pain i had no clue where i was or where i was going when I was stopped by head lights.

"Are you ok?" The voice asked. I nodded my head before complete darkness took over me.

I opened my eyes to be meet with bright lights, I looked around to see that I was in the hospital.

"Finally your awake" I heard a voice say. "We were worried about you if you would have woken up the we would have had to pull the plug on you" I looked at him confused.

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"You were in a coma for four months now" he said "Can you tell me your name, please" he asked.

"Amina Marie Frost" I told him sitting up.

"Ok good, Amina when you were brought here we noticed that you were very dehydrated, looked to have been starved to death and beaten, so we did a rape kit on you see when noticed vagina scaring we are calling the young gentleman that brought your here" he said walking out.

I rolled over on my side and just looked out the window. I was thinking about how was I going to survive now that I'm free, my family probably wasn't looking for me so I have no one.

"Hey" I heard someone say breaking me out my thoughts. I turned to see a young male, that kind of looked like my father standing there.

"H-hey" I whispered barely enough for him to hear.

"I'm Anthony but everybody calls me Ant" he said .

"Amina" I said lowly.

After that day me and Ant became close, eventually I had to tell him what had happened to me, I was mentally fucked up, I trusted nobody not even myself sometimes. And til this day I still don't trust anyone.

Ant help me build the courage to come back home, when I returned to my home I looked into the window and say my mom, but she was pregnant and holding baby clothes in her hands. I knocked on the door and it slowly came opened and I came face to face with my father.

He looked shocked at first to see me then, he just got on his knees and started crying thanking god. My mom came to the door with a shocked face that quickly turned into a mad face. When I walked into the house I noticed there was a huge change, all of my pictures was gone and my room was changed into a nursery.

I saw how within the five years of my "disappearance" my family have moved on and forgot about me. A few months later my mom had her baby but it was stale born and she blamed me for the reason of that happening.

End of Flashback

She said and I quote "This is all your fault, your presence is just bad luck I wish you would just die already". After that I just distant myself from everyone expect for Breeann and Ant.

My life have been fucked up since the beginning, my dad does know who he is sleeping with at night. I love my dad to death but I still don't trust him like I use to when I was younger.

After I was done telling my story to Devron I looked up to see the look on his face, its was pale like he seen a ghost. He didn't say anything, he just got up and left without saying a word.

I got dressed for bed, and laid there looking up ay the ceiling thinking. And I did the one thing I saw I would never do in my life again, cry. I eventually cried myself to sleep.

Fuck the world and fuck the people in it. Its me and only me.

Here is an update bot gone lie I was bout to cry writing this.

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