shawn's pov
"I'm worried about her." I say to Nash as I cook dinner.
"I'm worried about both of them." He replies, "Cam won't even respond anymore. He just sits there with a blank expression and dead eyes."
"Maiz is just really depressed. She keeps writing in this note book but at least she's taking care of herself." I stand and stir the pasta cooking in the pot, thinking about how to solve this problem.
maizy's pov
It hurts to breathe sometimes, it hurts knowing that I'm alive and healthy and that both of my parents are rotting in a hole in the ground. I've written so many songs and poems, or I've attempted to anyways. My feelings just won't work with my mind.
There's a small knock on the door and Cameron comes in.
"Hey." I say, softly.
"I need your help." He says.
"With what?"
"Getting better."
•••
They sent me to therapy. My school forced me to go to therapy. I can't believe this.
"Now Maizy, I know this was sudden. I mean, when people have cancer they can prepare and be ready for the death, but when it happens so suddenly, you aren't sure what to do. I'm here to help you with that." The man says.
"Well I don't want your help." I mutter.
"It's okay sweetie, I'm going to help you anyways and it will all be okay."
"Did you not just hear me? I don't want this! I want to cope with my parents' death in my own way, not by having some man I don't even know help me!" I exclaim.
He sighs, "Your brother and your boyfriend both agree it's good for you to be here. Your brother has recently seen me as well. I understand you've been doing a lot of crying, that's normal. Have you harmed yourself because of this?"
"No, I haven't harmed myself. I just haven't been eating as much as I should."
"I know you loved your parents b-" I cut him off. "Yeah of course I loved my parents. They were almost never around though, I never got my parents around and now they'll never be around again!"
I storm out of the room and call Cameron.
"Hello?"
"Hey, uh I kinda walked out of my therapy session. Can you come get me?"
"You-" He cuts himself off, "Sure, I'll come get you."
I sit on the curb for about 15 minutes until Cameron pulls up. I get up and get in the car, he doesn't say a word to me on the way home.
"I'm sorry." I say, as he pulls into the garage.
He doesn't respond, just slams the car door and walks inside. I slowly walk inside and up to my room. I open the door and Shawn was sitting there on my bed with his guitar. Nash was in the corner of the room with a video camera.
"What are you doing?" I ask.
"Sh, just listen." Shawn whispers.
"When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears coming streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.."
Shawn's beautiful voice fills the room and I stand in the doorway, shocked and on the verge of tears.
By the time he's done singing, I'm in tears. I can't believe he would do something like this for me. He's so amazing.
"Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you." He finishes.
He sets his guitar down and I run up and hug him as tightly as possible.
"Thank you so much." I whisper.
"You're welcome."
Nash turns off the camera and shuts the door as he leaves.
"I'm tired." I mumble.
Shawn hands me some sweats and a tshirt and I go change. When I get back, Shawn tucks me in and kisses me on the forehead.
"Feel better, Maiz." He says. He gives my hand a squeeze and walks out the door.
"I love you." I whisper after he shuts the door.
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Wow okay so it's been a really long time since I've updated and I have a couple reasons why. So first, I've been really busy lately. Second, the vice principal at my school passes away last week and it was really hard on everyone. Third, my great grandma got put in the ICU yesterday and it has been really hard on my whole family so we don't know what's happening with that but if you could keep her and my family in your prayers, that would be awesome. So sorry for the wait, I'm laying in bed sick right now so I figured that I should update. Thanks for reading!!
-Sophie😛
