a/n: honestly guys this story isn't turning out how expected at all but it's almost over and so I'm going to finish it but I'm sorry for the way this is going if you don't like it because I can definitely do better than this. Im starting another story after this is over and we'll just see how that turns out. Hopefully you enjoy this insanely sad chapter because I cried writing it.
-Sophie💮
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shawn's pov
"Shawn Mendes, a well known Viner, phoned into the police station earlier tonight to report his girlfriend attempting suicide. Maizy Dallas was the sister of another well known Viner, Cameron Dallas, and was reported to have intentionally fallen off of an abandoned building at about 12:07 a.m. She was a very well known girl on social media and was also very talented. Cameron and Maizy's parents died about a month and a half ago, and both of the children had grieved since they got the news. The death of the parents is believed to be the reason of Maizy's suicide. She did die because of the injuries in her back and head, she broke most of the bones in her body and died instantly after the fall because of the impact. Shawn Mendes says 'She told me to come with her to a place after dark, when she pulled up to the building I knew something was up. We got up there and she started talking about how much she loved me and how it wasn't my fault and how she would miss me, then the next thing I knew, she was standing at the edge and I remember her turning around and looking at me. I went after her and she just stuck out her arms and fell back, I reached out to grab her, my fingers just barely touched hers and then she fell even farther.' After taking Mendes into questioning, police have confirmed it was a suicide. Maizy was a smart, beautiful, and talented girl, she will be missed. This is Brenda Atkins and you're watching Channel 7 News."
I sit on the couch with Cameron and Nash next to me. Nash is too in shock to do anything, Cameron hasn't stopped crying since he got the news, and I'm just bawling. It was my fault, it's my fault she's dead. I could have stopped her but it was too late. All of family and the rest of the guys are flying in later this week. I can't believe I let her die. It was all my fault.
"Come here." Nash pats my shoulder and we go upstairs. We stand in the hallway and I burst into tears again. He grips my shoulders tightly and looks me in the eye.
"Hey, listen to me. It is not your fault." He says sternly.
"But it is! I could have stopped her, I could have done something and I didn't!" I sob.
"You did do something, you tried to stop her. Look, she loved you, she loved you so much. She believed it was her time, so she went. She was ready to be with her parents, she will be okay."
"I just wish I had stopped her."
"It's alright. She wasn't happy here, she wanted to leave."
"If I had stopped her, she wouldn't be dead."
"Shawn you don't get it, she was already dead before she fell off that roof. She was dead on the inside, she couldn't handle it anymore, she did so she could get better."
I don't respond, just cry harder. Why did this happen?
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All three of us go into her room and the first thing I see is the notes on her bed. There is one for each of us. I pick up the one written for me and the other boys pick up theirs.
'Dear Shawn,
You are the love of my life. I'm sorry for all that I've caused you. You don't deserve it. I know you don't understand why I did what I did, but I needed to do it. I missed my parents, I needed to be with them. I had been depressed for too long before everything happened anyways. I don't really know what to say, I've written this too many times. I took you with me because I wanted you to be the last person I saw. I will always love you, please know that. I just wanted you to know. The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained, so I wanted to explain. That's my explanation. I just hope you forgive me, you don't deserve this pain. But sometimes that pain sticks around for so long, it just feels like you're drowning. Please don't miss me, find someone to love and hold you. Please don't cry over me for long, you deserve to be happy, I don't want you to end up like I did. I love you.
-Maizy'
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FRICKJ IM CRYING SO BAD ONSKGASHSH
-Sophie😭
