Always and Almost Forever. {Harry Styles}

Chapter Five

“So” I heard Harry clear his throat before he started talking “How did it happen?”

We were now sitting on the same spot we here we sat a while ago. He was holding my right arm so carefully like he was afraid he would break it. I saw his eyes scan my arm, his eyes lingering a bit longer on my wrists where a few lines of cuts were visible. The sight made me disgust myself even more. He thinks the scars were from the accident, when in reality, it was because of him.

The sun was already setting, causing a magnificent glow on the water. People started to leave, but a couple of few more were still playing on the water. Thankfully, no one recognized us so we weren’t mobbed or anything.

“The accident?” I asked him as I felt him run his fingers along the scars tenderly. I saw him nod and I felt the bitterness in my tongue as I lied to him “It happened... um, nine months ago. I can’t remember what happened, but the last thing I knew I woke up in a hospital room”

I felt sick in my stomach that I actually had to lie. Why can’t you just tell him the truth? I heard a voice in my head say but I just ignored it.

“It was horrible” I said, saying it more to myself than to Harry. I feel horrible. I am horrible.

Harry reached up and brushed my fringes off my forehead and pushed them towards the back of my ear. “Shh, it’s okay” He whispered before he softly planted a soft kiss on my forehead. His gesture made me warm inside and made me feel worst than I did before. He was so concerned and here I was, lying to him.

“No, it’s not okay” I mumbled as I felt the tears back in the brim of my eyes. “I feel terrible and disgusting and-“

“Hey” He murmured as he let go of my hand and pulled me close to his chest, his arms around my waist “It’s going to be okay, Jo”

I rested my head on his shoulder, feeling the same warmth and inhaling his scent that I missed. I felt my nose touching his neck and his arms tightened around my waist. This was something I will never get tired of feeling. But, I know this won’t be forever, especially with the lie I was hiding from him.

It’s not going to be okay, Harry.

“Come stop your crying, it will be all right. Just take my hand and hold it tight...” I heard him sing softly, his voice calming me.

Despite the heaviness I was feeling, I managed to chuckle, remembering the times when I cried and Harry sang the song to me. This was one of the little things I love about Harry.

“Can we watch Tarzan when we get back?” I asked him as I nuzzled my face into his neck.

He chuckled and I felt him nod. “Sure thing, love”

Halfway through the movie, I felt my eyelids beginning to flutter close. I was lying across the couch, with my feet dangling on the armrest. Harry was sitting on the floor, with his back pressed to the couch. He seems to be really into the movie, with his eyes plastered straight to the television screen.

It was almost nine when we got back from our three hour drive, and I was dead tired because of the swimming we did a while ago. Harry, on the other hand, was still alive and still had energy to watch a movie. And because I wanted to spend time with him, I agreed and now, here we are, watching one of my favourite movies of all time, Tarzan.

I felt my eyes close and I slowly drifted off to sleep, not being able to watch the movie anymore. I was about to completely fall asleep when I felt something in my hand. I opened my eyes and saw Harry holding my hand, our palms pressed next to each other.

You know the scene when Tarzan and Jane had both of their hands against each other, yes, that’s the one. But, Harry wasn’t looking at me. He had his eyes fixed on my hand, next to his. My fingers were shorter and green coats of nail polish were painted over my finger nails. I watch as he slowly slips off the ring I was wearing from my ring finger with his other hand. It was the wedding ring I was supposed to give him at our wedding. It was a band of gold with a thinner band of silver around it. He held it with his thumb and pointer finger and despite the darkness in the room, I saw the cursive letters engraved on the inside of the ring. Harry + Joanna.