Always and Almost Forever. {Harry Styles}

Chapter Three

“Are you sure about this?” Mattie asked as she watched me run around my room, throwing clothes at my luggage. I stopped and saw her looking over at me with that same expression on her face whenever she wants to say something but decided against it.

“I don’t know why I’m doing this but I’m sure I want to, Mattie” I told her as I sat down on my bed and began to fold my t shirts. “I always thought I would be strong enough to push him away but I just can’t.”

“I understand” She sighs before she pushed herself off the door frame and walked over to sit down beside me. “I just don’t want you getting hurt again, Joanna”

I smiled at her and slowly nodded “If I get hurt again this time, it’s my fault, not Harry’s. It would be my fault for letting him again. But, I really want to start over again with him, you know?”

She nods and took a piece of my clothing and started to fold as well “I’m proud of you, little sister, and I promise I would always be there for you no matter what happens”

“Thank you, Mats” I told her sincerely before grabbing the envelope Harry handed me a while ago. “Do you think this will be worth it?”

She looked at me closely then I watch her nod slowly “I still do think that Harry is an arse, but like what they say, everyone deserves a second chance. But if he messes up again this time, I would have to shave that pretty head of his”

I chuckled at her comment and shook my head at her “That’s not very nice, Mattie”

“Well, so is being stood up at your own wedding” She whispered as she looked down at me.

I bit my lip as I put my clothes inside the luggage neatly. The pain of being left at that church was still fresh on my heart and hearing Mattie say it out loud caused my heart to break a little but I just ignored it. I looked at the envelope in my hands and opened it, seeing an airplane ticket inside it.

Letting my eyes wander at the letters, it excited me a bit to know that I was going back to Australia. It has been almost four years since I last visited my parents who lived there. I missed Australia, its beach, its atmosphere. I missed everything.

I took the plane ticket out of the envelope and something fell off, landing just beside my feet. Mattie reached out for it and handed it to me. It was a piece of paper folded in half. I hesitantly opened it and was greeted by the familiar handwriting that I was sure was Harry’s.

If you ever read this, it means you agreed to start over.

I know you probably won’t remember but I just want to say sorry for what I did. I really am. I don’t know if you remember it, but I sure do hope you don’t. Not because I don’t want you to hate me, but because I don’t want you to feel hurt over and over again.

I will make sure you’ll remember everything we’ve been through because I can tell you that what we had was beautiful and I hate myself for ruining it. So now, I will start over again and fix everything.

This is just the first step. I’ll show you what you did to me when we first met on the banks of that bay.

I love you.

I was sure Mattie was reading along with me and when I finished reading, a single drop of tear ran down my cheek and I instantly wiped if off, but Mattie saw it.

“Happy tears or sad tears?” Mattie asked as she stroked my hair.

I simply shrugged before returning the paper, along with the plane ticket, inside the envelope. “I don’t know what to feel right now, Mat” I said as I laid down on my bed and grabbed one of the pillows and hugged it tight. “I still am broken from what he did, but because of this thing he’s doing I just want to forget everything and start over but something keeps me from fully letting go of the past”