I'm fine

Episode 5

I was block in his embrace, I couldn't move and in a way and didn't want to move. I felt comfortable and safe on his chest. We were sharing our warmth. But I realize soon enough that it wasn't right to do this. I slowly back up from him trying to not wake him up. I open the door, look at him again and left. I was feeling weird things for him, but it wasn't right, it was unprofessional. His story hurt me and shows how brave and strong he is. His personality and his willingness to protect me from any danger even if we don't know each other very well. I can't do this, Namjoon trust me.
I went back to my office and continue my work trying to forget about it.
Jungkook's POV
I woke up from my nap, and it honestly feels like the best nap I ever had in my life and I don't even know why. I walk to the table and saw some books with a little paper on them 'Since you are asleep I don't want to bother you. Here are some books, I hope you will enjoy them. -Y/n'. So she came here when I was asleep, she must have seen me shirtless again....and that's maybe why i smelt a vanilla scent during my dream...

Aside Taehyung, she is the only person i feel safe and comfortable with even tho we know each other for only 2 weeks. She makes me comfortable and in a trust situation. I wear my shirt and walk outside. As soon as I open the door I meet my nurse Rose "Excuse me? Where can I found Doctor Y/n please?" I ask her "She is in her office with her appointment. You can sit on the chair in front of the office until she finish" she explains "Okay, thank you." I bow and went back to my room to grab a book. I sit on a chair in front of a door with the inscription 'Doctor Lee Y/n - Psychologist'. I start reading the book, getting immersed soon enough.
Your POV
"Perfect Ms. Kang, I will see you next week. Until then follow my advices and take some rest." I indicates to my patient "I will, thank you doctor. Goodbye" she greets me and leaves. I open the door for her and greet her back and I saw Jungkook sitting in front of my door, reading a book. "Jungkook?" I call him to grab his attention "Oh you are done?" he asks standing up "Yes, just now...Everything is alright?" I ask worried a bit.

"Yes, everything is alright. I just thought about our appointment." he answers calmly "Oh yeah, I almost forgot about it.. Come in." I smile. We sit like always and I grab my notebook and sit in front of him "How are you feeling since you are here?" I ask getting comfortable on my sit "I feel rested, a lot actually. It's been a long time since I felt like this." he answers with a relaxed face "That's great to hear! Today I wanted to talk about positive things. Are you okay with it? We can talk about something you want maybe?" I propose him "No, it's a good idea" he smiles "Okay! So, I have a few questions about happy things in your life. First, what is the thing that makes you happy nowadays?" I start my process.
"All the little things that my cousin does to make me happy, when he gives me some candies when his mom is not here or things like that. Just Taehyung himself, he is the only person who cares about me since my parents' death. Random things like reading, because I can get out reality. And the last thing is something I can't say for now because I don't feel comfortable to say it yet..." He mumbles the last part getting quite shy

"That's already really good! You are able to see happy things even in your lifestyle. And about the last thing it's okay, you can keep secret thing for you. But feel free to tell me anything." I tell him smiling and he nods "Okay! Next question, When or with who do you feel the best feeling? When you feel the happiest?" I ask "When I am with Taehyung, always. When I am far from my aunt. And when I am here but ... only with you.." he answers getting shy again at the end of his sentence. I felt my own cheeks getting red by his words but take myself together soon enough to not let him notice
"That's good then, it means you still have some hope and trust in people around you. Some people feels so abandonned that for them there is no exit. And I'm happy that I make you feel safe ..." I mumble the last part trying to not look like a tomato "It's because you make everything to make feel at my ease. Thank you" he continues. "I'm glad, I hope I will help you until you get better." I smile to him "Okay, Now what was the last experience that made you happy?" I ask him to continue the exam.

"Well, the last time before my parents' death was when I was dating a girl for the first time... I thought it was love... of course I was too young to really know what was love but now I know it was just the excitment of my first relationship. And the last time was wet I met you because your are the first woman since a long with whom I I feel not in danger and I remember my mom" he explains. I was so happy that he was opening up so much to me at this point and that I was the cause of all of that. "I'm happy to hear that, it means I'm doing my job well." I smile widely feeling prouder than I've ever been for any other patient.
"I think you did a good job for today Jungkook. You can go get some rest, they will bring you your medicine and your dinner" I instruct him "Okay, thank you" he answers standing up and walking to the door. I was rearranging my notes when he talks again "Y/n ?" he calls me "Yes?" I answer looking up "Are you going to leave soon?" he asks me. I was kind of taking aback "uhm... Well maybe in 30min or an hour.. Why?" I ask "Can I ask you a favor?" he asks again

"Of course, anything to help you" I answer smiling "Can we have a walk together in the garden?" he demands me "Well...let me finish this and I will come to you in a few. Are you okay with that?" I propose him "of course! thank you!" he smiles leaving. I was surprised by his request. I write the last important point about this appointment and put everything in my bag to work on it back at home. I took my bag and went to Jungkook's room. "Jungkook? I am ready" I inform him "Okay, I'm coming" he says grabbing a coat. We walk to the garden and just silently around. "I hope it doesn't bother you...?" he asks me shyly "Oooh no don't worry, I actually enjoy it a lot. It refreshing to have a night walk" I answer comforting him about it
"I wanted to tell you something actually..." he continues but getting tensed up "Sure, go on!" I answer "Well it's kind of embarassing and it could be... irreversible." he explains "Oh...is it that important ?" I ask worried "Yes... So I'm not sure about saying it..." he says again. "Just say it and we will manage it together afterward. I'm here to help you after all" I comfort him again.