Chapter 29: "It's All My Fault"

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I sat in the waiting room with the band, just gazing into space.

My hands were still covered in blood from mom, and from Chris, as were my clothes. My face was tear-stained, and my eyes were likely red. All I felt since the ambulance brought Chris here was the suffocation of anxiety.

The boys just sat near me, Guy watching me as I continued to stare into space, my mind reliving all of the hell I had just gone through.

"Aaliyah?" Guy asked gently. "Do you wanna go wash your hands?"

I looked up at him, nodding a bit.

He stood, as did I, and we both began to walk down the hall, towards the bathroom.

As we walked, I felt my eyes well up With tears.

I didn't want to break down again, not in front of Guy.

But I did.

I began crying, covering up my face with my bloody hands as I sobbed.

"This is all my fault!" I cried.

Guy hugged me, pulling me close. "This isn't your fault.."

"Yes it is!" I sobbed. "If I hadn't shown up in Chris's life, he'd be okay! What if he doesn't make it? It's my fault!"

"Shh.." he hushed me, rubbing my back as I continued to sob. "He'll be okay."

"You don't know that.." I whimpered. "If he dies...what will I do? I love him...so much.."

"I know. We do, too." He said. "We have to have hope, right?"

I swallowed. "I'm so sorry, Uncle Guy.."

"For what, Aaliyah?"

"I've ruined your lives.." I sobbed.

"Hey, Hey.." he said softly, kneeling down.

He held my face in his hands, wiping away my tears with his thumbs.

"You made our lives better, Aaliyah." He said. "And Chris's. With you, he's the happiest he's ever been."

"But what if he dies?" I Asked. "It's all my fault."

"Aaliyah, please stop saying that." He said, looking into my eyes. "None of this is your fault, okay? Things will be alright, I promise."

I swallowed, nodding a little. "Thank you, Uncle Guy.."

I walked into the bathroom, going straight to the sink, and washing my hands.

The blood ran down the drain, and I sighed softly.

Why did all this have to happen?

I hoped Chris would be okay.

The thought of losing him broke my heart, more than anyone could ever know.

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