Ciel's Diary~ Ciel x Alois

Chapter 1

Ciels POV:

Dear diary,

Trancy is Suppost to be arriving here at an unknown time today. I am sure it will be late for he never arrives on time. Tra-

I raced back to reality when the door opened revealing the face if Trancy. I panicked and swiped the indigo blue book under my bed covers. Trancy didn't seem to notice for he was distracted by the paintings on the wall.

Alois POV:

My eye darted to the book for a slight second but I quickly looked at some paintings on the walls to seem like I hadn't just seen a book that he OBVIOUSLY didnt want me I see. Knowing me, I had to look at it anyways.

"Sh-shall we go to the st-udy?"
Ciel said stuttering

"Of course, we must discuss the latest kidnappings that have been happening" I say forcing a smile without hesitation.

He stood up from his bed, attempting to keep his normal face. We walked down the hall into his study. I sat in a brown, vintage green couchen chair.

"May I use the washroom Phantomhive?" I say smiling and squinting.

"We'll Im not going to force you to do it here am I?" Ciel said sarcastically. He got up as if he was going to escort me there.

"I know where the washroom is! I don't need you escorting me there!" I scold glaring at him. Even though I was holding in a giggle. I left the room and when I got far enough he couldn't here me I ran to his room. I quickly swiped the covers off his bed but I was in shock when I saw nothing under them.

"Where the hell is it?!" I say frustrated. I lifted every pillow and searched the bed all over. My heart pounded as I heard the door open. Before I could even turn around I was tacked off the bed on the ground.

THUD. My back smacked the floor.

"Where the hell is it you bitch?!" Ciel screamed sharp eyed.

Ciels POV:

I knew this son of a bitch would come back for my book. How could I have been so stupid? Well I know that he's not going anywhere now that I have him pinned down. He breathe heavy under me.

"Tell me you won of a bitch."

My anger gets the best of me. I pull out a pocket knife, the one I always have spare in my coat pocket. I raise it in the air. This is why I want right? I've always wanted him to die. I hate him! This is what Im going to do.

"CIELL-" he screams tears rushing down his cheeks.

My hand it stopped an ten knife is a right between his eyes. Why the hell happened? I relize Sebastian is behind me holding my wrist. I look up at him in shock. He has a smile in his face, he is bent over to
Seize me hight. He pulls a indigo blue book from his back pocket.

"Master, is this what you are looking for?" He says holding the book in front of him.

"Gimme that!" I shout snatching the book from his hand. Alois is still whimpering in the floor like the pathetic soul he is. I still want him to die, just not yet, it's more important that I have my book and it's safe. I get off of Alois and hold the book almost hugging it.

"Leave." I say softly choking back tears.

"LEAVE!" I repeat louder.

"Yes young master, I will prepare him a carriage and inform Claude right away." Sebastian says with a bow.

Once they leave my room I sit cross legged on my bed. I roll over and place the book gently on my bedside table. I sigh. Thinking about what would have Happend if Alois were to read it. All of my secrets from the day Sebastian came, until today. 2 years. Anger and frustration fills inside of me. Why the hell would I have not killed him? Why the hell did I trust him? Too many questions full my brain and all I want to do is scream. Scream it all out, although i know i cant for it will be too obvious of my pain. instead I press my palms together in a praying position. And force them as hard as I can together. My face turns dark red. That wasn't enough to let my anger out. I am now shaking, nearly crying. I press both palms to my ears, fingers facing upwards, I scream as loud as I can not thinking of the consequences.

Sebastian immediately charges in and I lift my head. A lock of hair flowing in front of my eyes.

"Young master, are you alright?"

"Im fine." I say softly my eyes closed.

He exits the room. Somehow that was the worst lie I ever told.