blue. [stiles stilinski]

[ten] because i killed someone

"Because i killed someone."

Just as the chaos is starting to register within my brain, the cold air hits me, causing my body to become littered in goosebumps. I adjust to my surroundings, coming face to face with an unfamiliar individual.

"Are you okay?" They ask, releasing my arm and staring at me with great concern.

I hold back a sob, nodding softly, whilst hiding my face in embarrassment. "I'm Kaia, Renee's friend." She continues, placing a gentle hand on my shoulder,

"I'm so sorry, Gila has always been like this, she's just used to getting what she wants."

I sniffle, wiping my eyes with my knuckles; "I don't understand what i did wrong, i'm so humiliated." I heave, letting the tears fall from my eyes, my knees buckling as my body almost gives in from exhaustion.

Kaia retaliates almost instantly, her arms wrapping around me, holding me up. Her sudden kindness surprising me as my head sank into her shoulder, my tears soaking through her jacket.

"I promise you, it's not as bad as you think Rue, everyone could see who was in the wrong."

I pull back from the hug, smiling at her gratefully. The cold had begun to bite at my body, the wind getting more and more unbearable with each gust.

Just as i was about to thank Kaia, the exit door slams open and someone hits me at an unbelievable speed, engulfing me beneath their embrace. I only realise who it is when the smell of cherry perfume registers with my senses.

Renee

"I'm so sorry, i'm so so sorry i wasn't there Rue." She gasps, squeezing me tightly before grabbing my shoulders. She looks from me to Kaia, panting heavily, as her eyes frantically search the street.

"I'm going to murder them." Renee declares, "I will kill them both! They'd be lucky if they survive the night with their heads still attached to their bodies because i wi-"

"Rue?"

Stiles gravel-like voice cuts through Renee's ranting and plummets us all into a unbearable silence.

His under eyes are stained a deep red, giving the appearance that he'd just been crying and his hands are still tightly clasped around the neck of a beer bottle.

He takes a step closer to me, his eyes void of all emotion. I stand eerily still, drinking in his tired appearance, noticing the way his hollowed out features shone under the street lamps.

Until, suddenly, Renee takes a step in front of me, abruptly stopping anything from happening and coming face to face with Stiles.

"Get back inside." She says, her voice coming out as a growl, causing me to believe the drinks i consumed had not yet worn off. I'm reassured that i'm not hallucinating when Stiles' expression warps to instant fear, his eyes frantically searching her face.

It was impossible for Renee's voice to change like that, it must be something to do with the music from the party inside.

I step forward, interfering with Renee's interrogation. "It's okay, go, i'll meet you at the front." I reassure her, smiling at her slightly.

Pausing for a moment, Renee finally nods, shooting a stare at Stiles before grabbing Kaia's arm and walking towards the front of the building.

Obviously relieved, Stiles lets out an audible sigh, stepping closer towards me.

"Rue, i promise you it was a mistake."

I look at him. His tired face, his sullen expression and yet i feel nothing but hatred for the sad boy stood in front of me.

"No Stiles it wasn't." I retaliate, staring at him intensely as his eyes burn into mine.

He reaches out a hand to brush away a fallen tear but immediately i shrug it off, scrunching my face at an attempt to hide my upset.

"You've despised me ever since you met me Stiles, you've tormented me with your constant change of feelings; how sometimes you seemed to care, that sometimes i swore that there seemed to be a sliver of concern within your eyes when you truly spoke to me." I begin, my thoughts spilling from my mouth and coming out as jumbled sentences.

"But you don't care do you, you like the way i keep allowing you to treat me like this, the way i am always there for you to serve as your personal punching bag, the way i'm weak and a push over. The way i let you into my dorm and told you something i have never told anybody, the moment of actual fun we experienced, just after you finished fucking Gila ten minutes before." I stop to catch my breath, the burn in my throat quelling as i let the tears fall from my eyes.

He looks at me, his facing flushing red; "I was drunk Rue, i didn't know what to do, and you are the only person that makes me feel sane sometimes!"

Shocked by his excuse, I let out a laugh, throwing my head back as my mind slowly came to terms with the words he'd just spoken.

"Sane? Don't lie to me Stiles. If that was true then why treat me like this after you have ignored me for weeks?"

I search his face desperately, praying that he had a response, hoping i'd have a reason to stay there and speak to him.

But i don't get one.

I let out a sigh, rubbing my hand across my face. The wind had began to pick up now, droplets of rain following as they mixed in with the tears from our faces. My hair blowing backwards as i turn to leave.

But then i hear something, the one thing i never wanted to hear, especially from Stiles.

"Because I killed someone."

This is so short i'm so sorry! I have actually set myself a posting schedule and will be posting every saturday, i hope that's enough, i've been so busy with school lately so writing this is a struggle but i love creating chapters for this story and i hope you enjoy reading them. I love you all so much and i hope you liked this chapter. See you soon <3