Bipolar

Chapter Three.October marshall

I'm safe. In my room. No more stuff to stress over. No more phoney lithium tablets. No more school. No more hospitals. Safe. Rob has tried calling me a million times but he kept on making them video calls so I rejected them all.

Myra's called once or twice, but I didn't really want to hear her talking about my brother all day. Gross.

Who would even crush on Rex? That's practically crushing on me as a boy (That's not retarded) grossssssssssssssss. I lost my train of thought when Rawiri barged in. "it's time for dinner, come on", his green eyes looked away from his phone for a fraction of a second. "Yep, I'll come soon, I'm just texting Rob'', I murmured while writing in a completely different conversation, "ok, be quick though".

I walked down stairs in my Pj's, Dad stared at me like I was crazy. My whole family was sitting on the table unnaturally. No food. No conversation. "I thought you said I was time for dinner?'', I stared into Rawiri's guilty face.

"Come and sit October", Mum's voice was solid. Oh no. What's going on?

I followed her command.

"October, we need to talk about your pills",

"I told you I took the nurofen on accident, it's not my fault!",

"We're not... we're not talking about that",

"October, we're taking you off your pills", Dad seemed dead serious

"W-what? You've seen how I am when I don't take my pills!",

"Yes, but October, we can't pay over fifty dollars everytime you run out",

"Can I atleast get some xanax or anti depressants?", I pleaded, my heart racing in my ears

"No more pills October, we need to save money for University",

I immediately stood from my chair,

I can't mum, Dad.

I can't be normal without my pills.

I can't live.

I can't. I can't. I can't.

It's too hard. You don't understand.

I ran into my room and slammed the door.

Four pills left. Four days left. Rob. I need Rob.

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October Friday 13th 2021

"I'm in secondhand smoke

Still just canned Coke

I don't need a to feel better

On drives home

Only one who's not stoned

Don't give me a Xanny, now or ever"

That's all I wrote for my math, science and Biology assignment.

My mum's been harassing me with these lyrics.

Billie eillish does kind of make me feel better; not that much though.

She kind of makes me feel Emo.

I try to avoid Myra by following Rob and Colin.

"Are you sure your ok October, it's pretty harsh to take away your pills",

I've been dodging this question all day.

I opened my mouth then closed it again.

Don't give away anything.

I lay my head on his shoulder

"I'll get over it",

He sighed,

"I hope you will", he looked towards Colin, who was texting someone.

"Ooh, Colin's texting Riley", Rob cooed

"Shut up", Colin mumbled, Rob chuckled

"You have a boyfriend, Ollie?",

I froze, umm... What is he suggesting?

"the closet thing I have to a boyfriend is you",

I blurted out,

Rob's face was so straight, I think he was processing what I just said.

"Ok?", he finally spoke

I couldn't help but giggle

"Ok".

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History

Shane had screwed his assignment paper into a ball and he's throwing it at my head.

My fists are balled up.

My Dad walked in and he stopped.

"Ugly", he whispered in my ear from behind me,

Shut up. Shut up! SHUT UP!

I was sure my face was green like the hulk about to transform.

"Your worthless", he tried again,

Before I could react Rob threw a punch at him.

Shane's nose is bleeding.

"ROBERT!" Dad shouted, the class was silent.

He wouldn't stop punching him. Shane was so close to blacking out.

"Rob, please stop, he didn't do anything",

I murmured,

"Didn't DO anything!? HE'S BLOODY BULLYING YOU!", he yelled

"Just please stop, it's not worth it", my eyes were teary,

He was too. I walked up to him and hugged him.

"It's okay. You don't have to stand up for me".