HIM AND I

Chapter 13

" Are you afraid of water ? " Gavin asks ..of course he had to interrupt ..he is not looking at me in the eyes ...his eyes are closed. I don't know I just feel kinda bad for him . I mean he saved me and I am being a jerk to him ..I sigh heavily 

" Uh yeah I have ..aquaphobia ..it 's just .. deep water , lakes , oceans ..those make me a bit anxious ..." I say looking at the sky . I don't really wanna talk about this topic ..I sigh and close my eyes .

" I , had a friend .. he was an aquaphobic too ..he was nice , good , ambitious , amazing  guy ... his younger brother used to get jealous of him because he was loved , appreciated , praised well by his dad and others . " I don't like the word 'was' but I don't ask anything .

Gavin sighs heavily then continues " The younger one used to get frustrated sometimes but he also loved his brother. He also wanted to feel loved , appreciated just like his big brother .One day they visited a farmhouse with the whole family as a trip .The little boy was playing with his big brother near a flowing river . " he sighs again ..I don't like where this is going 

" Accidently he pushed his brother the other side and his big brother tripped , falling in the river ..the little guy screamed .He tried to save his big brother but the flow of the river was fast .It was so fast that he couldn't save him .He screamed but no one came , they were far from the house. The little brother did everything to save him but he was small , a 5 years old guy . "

I don't look at him .I want to, so badly but I am just looking at the sky . I heard Gavin's voice crack . I feel really bad about the guy . I want to ask many questions like did they find the guy , what happened to his little brother and many more , instead I ask none . I just don't fell like .I can't help but remember the night with the guy on the rooftop ..

" I .." Gavin takes a deep breathe , this time I look at him . I can't look away , Jesus he is looking so beautiful . His face is shining as the moonlight spreads on it , enlightening every damn feature . He has those green forestry eyes in which you would want to get lost . His full lips are dark pink . We are both laying few inches away from each other but I can clearly see his clean skin and his sharp jaw .I now notice that he is not wearing his hoodie . He is wearing nothing on his upper body , his abs are perfectly sculpted and his muscles.. , suddenly he turns his face towards me , F*CK now I regret ogling at him .

But this time I don't see his mask , it looks real . His green eyes hold the pain but they are showing it this time . What I have seen and heard about him yet is that he has this mysterious aura , you would want to know more than anything else . But as I have seen him , he is the guy who would never let you know what's going on in his head or how he is feeling . He doesn't show any emotion , any feeling or anything .

" F*ck , why didn't you tell me earlier that you have aquaphobia ? What if you didn't wake up , earlier ? WHAT IF ..." He stops shouting at me . I feel something tingling in my belly , was he , was he worried about me ? no I don't think that's the reason . He is the guy who can die in front of you but he won't say a word about his feelings . Of course , he is heartless after all .I just am suddenly feeling angry now . He is the one who kissed me first , without my f*cking permission ! and now he is barking at me .I narrow my eyes at him .

" Seriously ? I should be the one angry at you and here you are the one barking at me ! ..Why did you kiss me on the first place without my permission ? ..Oh yeah so that you can distract me ! Jesus, I Hate You Gavin ! just stop it . And that was the lamest idea of yours , by the way . " Everything I said to him came from my heart , I really do need to stop this because I ,  ugh I hate him and my mind is now giving me thoughts I should not be thinking .He knows it , too. A smirk appears on Gavin's face and it just boils my blood even more .