Fifty Shades of Barnes

Ocean Eyes

After Bucky finally gained consciousness he was escorted out of the training room, leaving me with Tony. I tried to walk away avoiding the lecture what was to come.

"Y/n Y/m/n Y/l/n come back here." I stopped in my tracks dropping my hands to my sides and walked back to Tony, my head hung low.
"You wanna tell me what the hell was that?" I looked up at him looking confused as to what he means by that.
"Don't give me that look y/n. You literally beat the shit out of Barnes, like you backed out."
"Why the fuck are you defending him. He killed your parents the only people who actually cared to take care of me when my own mom was too drunk to even try. Let alone you decide to live with him."
I felt the blood rushing to my face I could tell it was turning red. Tony sighed and placed his hands on my shoulder.
"Listen kid, I felt the same way you felt and beat the shit out of him too, but the thing is he was brainwashed to be a trained assassin and killed then in cold blood. He wasn't him."
"Wow thanks for the backstory Morgan Freeman but still doesn't change the fact he fucking killed him." I yelled as I began to walk away.
"He wasn't himself Y/n you can ask him and Steve if u want the full story. Get over it. Fucking baby." He mumbled under his breath.
" I heard that dipshit." I yelled walking out of the room into the hallway.

By the time I made it to the elevator I was on the verge of breaking down. I gotta get out of here. I pressed the button to the bottom floor of the tower and walked out of the lobby fully ignoring everything going on around me. I didn't keep track of the time nor where I was going, I just wanted to get to my spot. I trudged through the trees, bushes, and the broken branches of the forest a short ways behind the tower. Is it still here? I walked a little bit longer until I found an opening. A clear patch of grass and a grand weeping willow at the center. It towered over logs and other moss covered rocks that surrounded it. I made my way towards the willow and sat at the foot of the tree and cried curling myself into a ball. Time passed until it was almost sundown making me have to get back before it got dark. I trudged my way back into the lobby to find Jules packing her stuff up to go home, that was when she saw me.

"You ok y/n?" I gave her a soft smile and nodded.
"Well if there's anything you need to tell me I'm here ok."
"Thank you Jules, goodnight bestie."
"Night hoe." She winked walking out of the building. I walked back into the elevator and hit the button to my floor taking the time to cry even more. The door opened letting me walk down the hallway when I was about to pass Becky's room, his door was open.

I should at least apologize for striking down his ego.

I walked up to his door way and checked if he was there. Holy shit he was changing, and shirtless, very shirtless. Wait he kinda hot tho. "Oh shit I am so sorry." I said looking away. He looked up at me with his bloodied and beaten face. I looked back scrunching up my face at how bad it looked. "Dude I am so sorry about, your face, and striking down your ego." He looked at the floor laughing at himself.
"Yeah I might have deserved it. I've been through worse though cause you punch like a girl."
"I'm actually trying to be sincere for once be thankful." I retorted. He laughed even harder.
"What's so funny?" I said sounding as intimidating as possible. He continued to laugh then controlled himself.
"First of all you look like shit right now. What did you do fall into mud or something. Second of all your face gets really red when you're mad." He continued to laugh then winced in pain at constantly scrunching his face.
"Aww does Mr. Super Soldier need medical help?" I questioned in a mocking tone.
"No I got it." He said taking a paper towel to clean his cuts.

"What the fuck are you doing." I said disgusted at the dirty towel.
"Cleaning my cut."
"That is not cleaning a cut that's infecting it. Let the actual medical professional do it. Be right back." I said as I walked into my room to get my medical supplies. I came back with a black duffel bag filled, Bucky looked surprised.

"Aww am I your Derek to your Meredith." He mocked and I sat the duffel bag on the bed. He walked over to sit in front of me.
"Shut up Grey's Anatomy and hold still." I took out a wipe filled with hydrogen peroxide and lightly traced over his cut. He winced in pain.
"Shit sorry. I told you to hold still."
"Easy for you to say." I looked back at him, I never had a chance to look at his eyes, they were a bright baby blue with small specks of green in them. It reminded me of the ocean. We stared at each other for a little longer until Bucky broke the contact to look down.

Shit I forgot I'm here to clean his cuts. Don't get distracted Y/n.

I continued to clean his cuts, making eye contact here and there, he continued to look at me while I looked away.
"Why do you keep staring at me?" I questioned it was kinda getting creepy at this point.
"I hear what you and Tony were talking about after training. You guys fight like two monkeys trying to out talk each other." He laughed at himself about his totally non humorous joke.
"You think I killed your parents and I'm sorry, but I wasn't myself that time. If you want proof look at my left arm." I noticed how he was missing an arm and it was replaced with a robotic one, I didn't know it was for that reason tho. I stayed silent continuing on cleaning his cut.
"If you want to keep hating me, fine, I just want to make it clear that I didn't make the choice to kill your parents or whoever they were to you. I was basically a science monkey for Hydra to keep freezing and using for later." I finished cleaning his cut, added ointments, and topped it off with a bandage.

" I'm done cleaning your cuts now, just don't let me lick your ass again." I said cleaning up the rest of the supplies on the bed and nightstand.
"Thanks doll." He said with a soft smile.
"Your welcome." I said getting ready leave. He grabbed my arm making me turn around to look into those ocean blue eyes once again.
"Again I'm sorry about your parents. Good night Y/n." He let go of my arm continuing to make eye contact with me.

"Good night James." I said turning back around to walk out of his room and into mine. The second I entered I dropped my bag took a shower and headed straight to bed drifting off into a deep slumber filled with the oceans of Bucky's eyes.