From Zowie To Zuwaira

Chapter fifty_five

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Zuwaira

I took a long breath  trying to stop the sob which I couldn't control anymore I looked up for the first time since I began . He was look right at me without blinking and I quickly ducked my head back down

"If I hadn't gone out on that day my brother would have still been alive"now I was sobbing uncontrollably. He didnt even make a move to pet me. After I composed my self I continued
"When we got to turkey everything thing changed we had no one but each other. I took almost a year trying to get my self together. Zayad had to persuade me before I finally decided to write Cambridge because we never got to write waec.
We got a new apartment close to our college in Istanbul. It was very hard living all alone at just 16 years but we got through that. We adapted to our new life. There was one of Abbi's friend who leaves there. He always comes over to check up on us anytime he comes over for his business trips. His family leaves in Egypt but he works in Istanbul.
I didn't really get attached to anyone through out my stay. Be it boy or girl. I found it very hard to stay in the same place with a boy. I always felt threatened. The only people I  communicated with was our neighbors we go to the same school with though they were all older than us. I have been called several names because of my way of dressing. Most people called me a snub cause I don't talk to anyone. After my four years course. Abbi's friend told me to apply for a job I did and surprising got the job. I worked there for few months before Abbi called us to come back home...................." I completed telling him all that happened before our marriage.

When I was done I was crying erratically everything coming back newly. I looked up when I felt his arms on my shoulder . He laid me down on his chest and began rubbing my back soothingly and my heart broke at that gesture. After twenty minutes of crying and my tears almost died down. I was tired of his silence .it was killing me
"Say something ..."I pleaded
"Anything" I added releasing a sob
But he was still quite .
I squeezed his shirt and pushed my head deeper into his shirt trying to stop the tears.
After what felt like for ever he finally lifted my head up and I stared deeply into his eyes lookin for answers. He gently wiped away the tears on my face and I was taken aback when I felt his ever gentle lips on mine.
This wasn't the first time he was kissing me but something about the way he did it this time was different. He was very gentle making sure he felt all of what my lips tasted like. He left no place untouched till all I felt was him. I don't know maybe it's because this is the first time he is kissing me since after his recovery but what I do know is that I was enjoying every bit of it. I dogged my hand deep into his hair pulling it gently and it was like I was igniting the fire.It held a lot of emotions and desire. I was getting out of breathe but he had no intention of letting go. When I saw I was almost suffocating I had to pull back . He placed his head on mine as we both tried to catch our breath our eyes closed .
"I love you." He whispered and I gently my eyes and it fell directly into his.
"And nothing can change that." He added.and I felt tears rolling down my cheeks .

Why does he have to be so good🥺🥺

Those where tears of joy. I didn't know when I reached and hugged him ever so tight.

" I love you more tiger" I breathe out.
"I love you much more than you can ever imagine.I love you to the moon and back tiger. A life without you is a life I would never want to live in. Marrying you is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world whenever I am with you. I don't know when it happened or how but tiger you are different and special in every way. You are my fairy tale dream  that has come true and all I can say is Alhamdulilah ." I sobbed and he held me securely in his arm. I lifted my head up and the bright smile I saw in his face suddenly made me suddenly feel shy after my confession and I put my head down and he let out a light chuckle hugging me more and letting out a contented sigh.
He moved back a little so he could see me properly but I could dare to look up.
"Look at me"he whispered lifting up my head but I couldn't.
"Zuwaira look at me" the way he called my name sounded so foreign so I had to look up.
"I love you" was all he said before capturing my lips one more time. He began to sync in a rhythm I didn't understand. A rhythm that was very heard for me to comprehend and before I knew it I barely had cloths on.
I don't think am ready for this