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Niall's Pov

Niall was nervous as always, but tonight he was extra nervous because he knew that his friends are here to see Niall Horan perform

He was also feeling guilty, even though he knew that his friends didn't know that he was James he couldn't help himself.

Sometimes he wish he never lied to them, but he knew that this was not possible. Even if he had told them he was Niall, they wouldn't believe him.

"How are you feeling?" Lewis asked his best friend few minutes before he went on stage to perform himself.

"I should be asking you. It's your first time performing in front of so many people" I said and brush me off

"Oh I'll be fine, I'm hella good of a singer, they will love me" he says smiling, but I could tell he is nervous "Now tell me how you feel" he continues

"I am good, I think" I tell him unsure, he gave me a 'No you are not' look and I sign

"I don't know how I'm feeling... I want to go out there and tell them that I am James, their friend, but I know I can't do that" I tell him truthfully

"Why?" he wondered

"Because they sure as hell won't believe me" I said as a mother of fact

"You don't know that" Lewis said, and it was true I didn't know.

If I told them things only James would know they wouldn't have a choice but to believe me. But deep down I know I don't want them to know, not now, not like that

But if I continue lying to them then it will be worse, they will never talk to me again nor trust me. And I don't want that.

I have built a true friendship with these people, well as true as it can be with me lying to them. I don't want to ruin that.

I also know that Liam will never speak to me again if I continue lying to him and the others. So right then I made a choice

I will tell them the truth, today! And there is no going back!

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Sorry it's so sort 😭🥺