I ᴡᴀs ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜ ﹣ DAMIANO DAVID

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑

"If I had to choose between breathing and loving you, I would use my last breath to say I love you"

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I run into my appartment. After I got my suitcase and stuff by Jac I went as fast as I can to my own appartment. I fall on my bed, "how is it possible that he fired me". I don't cry much, but now I feel tears rolling down. It tastes salty. I did everything for that stupid cafe, I acctually liked working there. "They are suckers and they do not deserve such a hard worker as you", my sis helps me with my suitcase.

I calmed down. Vic told me to leave it. They don't want me anymore, their loss.

I wake up. In my own bed, which feels weird. I slept in Jac his bed for the last 7 nights. I look on my watch, it's only 8:34. My sister likes snoozing her alarm clock. So she won't wake up within two hours. I open the door to my little balcony, it's way little than the one at Jac's house. I light a cigarette, something in me stops. I think about what Damiano said. That Vic is just worried. She did never smoked, sometimes at parties. But my sister is really looking out for her own health. I put the deadly thing away, she is right. Smoking sucks.

I'm tired of being here. I'm going to Jac's house. He hates it when I wake him before 12 AM. That's the reason why I do it almost every single week, just to bully my best friend. I take Chili with me and write a note for vic, "I'm taking Chili and go to Jac's", I leave it on the kitchen and leave the house.

Luckily Jac and Damiano's appartment is only 2 minutes away. Chili jumps happy around me. We live in the centre of Rome, so I see already a lot of people. I have the key to their house so I open the door as soft as I can. I don't wanna wake him, not yet.

It's still dark in the house. But then my whole plan of waking my bestie is ruined. The little dog starts barking. "Shhh Chili please", I whisper at the dog, but she doesn't stop. I hear a noise coming from the bathroom. Damiano walks out of the bathroom, he almost gives me a heart attack.

"Amelie? What are you doing here?", he stands half naked in front of me. Chili runs into him and he kneels next to the little dog. "I wanted to wake Jac, you know how much he hates that so that was the best reason for me to do that". I laugh awkwardly and he laughs back. "Jac went to our parents for the weekend, didn't he tell you". He grabs a shirt from the ground and puts it on his body.

"Well, apparently he did not. And for the weekend? It's Thursday". I sign, a bit bitchy of Jacopo to not tell me he is gone for 4 days. "O yea, he said he's back this sunday. I was tired yesterday so did not listen very well". He laughs and walks to their balcony. He hands me a cigarette, "want one?". I know I would stop with it again, but I can't refuse him. I take it out of his hand.

The awkward moment is back. We smoke, but say or do nothing. I swallow. I feel something, something I have never felt before in my stomach. I ignore it. Damiano awkwardly plays with his lighter.

The tension between us has gona big. I don't look at Damiano. "I should probably g-go", I trow my third cigarette away and turn around. I walk against Damiano. "O-omg I'm sorry", he says, but doesn't move. I hear his heart beating, in the same rhythm as mine.

We look in each others eyes. I want to walk away, my legs won't move. He leans in and I feel our lips brush against each other. "Dam, we can't", I say and press my lips on his. "I know", he says, but does not stop.

We need to stop, I've know Damiano my whole life. And I can't make out with my best friends little brother. I stop, "I'm sorry Dam, I can't do it".

I take my coat off the chair and take Chili outside. Why did I do that? How could I do that. I feel so guilty.

"Where were you?", Vic is sitting at the table. I ignore my sister. "Leave me alone", I don't mean to sound so mean but I can't help it. "Hey what's wrong with you?", she sounds irritated. I sigh deeply. "Nothing just leaves me alone", I grab a pillow and put it in front of my face. I scream as loud as I can. Vic rolls her eyes and walks out of the room.

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JACCCCC :p

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U: Why didn't you tell me you were spending the weekend with ur parents?

JACCCCC :p: I'm sorry just forgot, who told u?

U: I was gonna wake u, but Dami told me you weren't home

JACCCCC :p: ow okayyyyy, see u sunday bestie

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I feel bad about lying to Jacopo. I mean I didn't lied, but I didn't tell him the truth. I felt something for Damiano, when he looked at me. And I saw in his eyes he felt the same.

"Amelie!!!! Ethan and Damiano wants to go out for lunch, are u joining", Vic calls at me from her room. I don't want to, but if I don't come he'll think I do not wanna see him. "Uhm yea sure". I swallow.

"What is wrong with you, amelie?" Thomas steals a few fries from my plate. We have been at a restaurant for an hour now. Damiano and I said nothing. It was awkward as fucked. "Uhm n-no I'm just a bit tired". Vic sighs. I sees she is getting annoyed of how I act. "Just fucking tell us what's going on", she looks at me and I look at Damiano. "Vic don't be mean to her", damiano stands up for me.

I can't take this anymore. "I'm going home". I get up without saying something.  

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AWHHH how sweet, I love amelie and Dami AHAHHA