DSMP trans oneshots

Ftm Wilbur

Feeling like shit. What do I do to cope?Rant using wattpad by creating an alternate universe fan fiction where one of my comfort streamers are having the same difficulties as me :))
At least it's healthier.

Wilbur sat there staring at the wall (shoouutt at the walls Cus the walls dont fuckinh love you) he couldn't escape his train of thought (jubilee line- okay I'll stop) his mind was racing. Questioning everything about himself. Why couldn't he just be confident in his identity? Why did his brain always make him second guess everything he thought he knew??

Your just doing it for attention.
Your not actually a boy.
Your a girl. Always have been always will be.
You look feminine.
How do you even know that your a boy?
Your just confused.

"Ugghhh" the brunette groaned falling, his back hitting the bed. He felt so numb. He felt like he was physically stuck between two worlds, just floating in between. He felt so lost and just fuzzy.

He had come out years ago, he had started transitioning and everyone used the right pronouns so why...

Why did he still feel like shit??

It's so confusing. He just wanted the world to swallow him whole and just die.

His ribs ached but he didn't care. He didn't move. The dysphoria was overwhelming. He knew he probably should talk to someone about it but he didn't want to bother them, he couldn't even explain it or put it into words.

He just laid there, staring at the ceiling blankly.

That is until he heard the familiar ping of a discord notification, he sat up and squinted at his computer.

'WILBUR GET YO ASS UP AND STREAM WITH ME!' -tommyinnit

Wilbur softly chuckled to himself, still in a daze. 'Maybe...' he thought, 'maybe it'll help if I just...'
He found the courage to get up and walk over to his laptop, Tommy was like a brother to him, he always pestered him to stream, he was literally the reason he got out of bed some days.

He took a deep breath in. And then exhaled. "Right here it goes..." he muttered before joining the vc.

"WIIILLLLLLL" the boy screamed through the mic, quickly finding its way to Wils earphones.

"God I forgot that I need to lower the volume whenever I call you..." the brunette joked, turning the volume down slightly.

"That's fine will." The boy said smugly, "I can just be louder to compensate for the lack of volume. Am I not the first thing you want to hear in the morning??" He immediately started wheezing, Wilbur assumed it was due to whatever the chat was saying.

'God how is this boy always filled with so much energy' Wilbur asked himself. 'Actually, he probably starts his day with a can of coke to be fair"

"Will Will Will Will Will big man right Will open Minecraft King we are going to blow up some shit." Tommy announced.

"Okay." Wilbur said blandly in response. Somehow hearing Tommy calling him his name and 'king' just filled him with euphoria.

Though Tommy had noticed the lack of energy coming from the older, "King. Are you okay? Are you having manhood troubles? Because I can definitely relate because I am a big man. Isn't that right chat? Big poggers man." He joked, "chat chat chat Wilbur is the manliest man I know, the king needs a crown and I'm going to make him one." Wilbur wasn't even out to Tommy as trans yet, but Tommy didn't need to know that to know that Wilbur always seemed to brighten whenever his masculinity was complimented.

Wilbur almost cried, the euphoria overflowing. The kid always knew exactly what to say somehow even when he didn't know what was going on.

"WIIILLLLLL" the child whined.

"What?" He asked bluntly.

"JOOOOIIINNNN THE SEERRRVVEEERRRRRRRRRRRRR" the blonde yelled.

Wilbur just laughed slightly at this as he joined. The two played minecraft for a while, even after Tommy's stream ended.

By then, he had completely forgotten about his earlier dysphoria.